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Shadowwolg
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in 2014, for the first time, i was able to verbally speak out in group that i enjoy masturbation...... group was a good thing, ... but by the spring we all felt we were ready to move on into life, this time, my counselor was leaving and i needed a different counselor, now i chose one that particiipated in group... i didn't really like her at first, since last year, i have come to say she has been what i needed,, by this time in 2014, i believed and trusted God that things would work out.. but i just hadn't learned the discipline part.. i now saw myself as someone worthy to fight for.. which made my counselor J happy, ... now, my counselor D... has been working hard at getting me past trying to work things out on my own, and reaching out to others....this has not been a good process... this year is also when i have worked on tying to accept who i am... someone who will probably always struggle with depression and suicidal thoughts... but i can learn to live a full life despite it... this year i have also decided that i would take my meds correctly , to help...now, through this all, i have not always liked my counselors, and fortunately they have allowed me to voice this... i still hated to go to counseling but knew it was the better thing to do... i am grateful for the counselors... ... ok, i will have to cont. this later... gotta go