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I'm 50, my first boyfriend was at 23 years old I learned to kiss at that age. My second bf was at 25 but chose not to kiss in an intimate way because my first relationship was going to far. I didn't like the feeling that I was loosing control. My third relationship was long distance and didn't last too long. I was too scared to move away from my family and there was no way he could get his type of work here. I did not date in between those 3 relationships and have not had a boyfriend since then. There was one other man that was intrigued by the fact that I was a virgin and kinda led me on but I chose to stop before I gave in to him. Now I'm not sure if it was my insecurities or just that I knew it would be sin that kept me. Most times I'm ok with being single and not having to deal with a relationship that may go wrong. I am a foster parent and kids keep me busy but I do miss that closeness to someone. I just don't know if I desire it enough or not and shouldn't seek. What are your thoughts?