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Here is the situation: kindly suggested to very close relation, highly respected member of family that a weekend trip involving all men and drinking, gambiling, and pornography....that He said he felt uncomfortable going to as a christian, but didn't want to cause a lot of strife in those friendships so had to go..all really wealth prominent men in our community. So I suggested that maybe God could use Him to stand up for Christ, because these men respect him, since noone has probably done that for them. I am a single 26 year old in the family and look up to this particular couple greatly, they have been my examples of what living the blessed life is, and have been a source of love in my life and strong point. So I never in a million years expected the reaction i recieved from that remark. It was incredibly hurtful, and very dissapointing. There are a lot of people very upset with me right now, and i dont know how quickly I can recover from the pain of realizing the people I have loved whole heartedly, will get made at me for standing up for Chist, and causing any kind of uncomfortable moment. It is like the comfort of no conflict is more important than doing what is right, and more valuable than me. I learned that the people I loved have a shallow love for me at best, and feel that I cant be myself around them, because if I am it makes people uncomfortable and disrupts the peace. I am having a VERY hard time not building a wall...any advice...I prayed that God would use this to strengthen our relationships, but part of me doesn't want to be wholeheartedly involved with my own family, that I love....dont like fake relationships...like strong ones that can withstand more than that.