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For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.
But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
I have a great deal of anger that 364 days per year I'm able to control so that it's not noticeable. Every once in a while, though, the conditions are right and I rage.
I've been asked not to return to a particular restaurant, for instance, after a heated conversation with my bigoted father-in-law. I've asked my brother-in-law never to show his face around my house again, after I caught him going through our pills. Etc., etc.
I don't think I'm wrong in laying down the law. Our new family needs to have clear boundaries - we're not a hotel, pharmacy, or shrink to whom her parents can dump their racial hatred. But after enough of these incidents... I despise these people. If I were drunk and in the same room, I'd probably hurt them.
How do I forgive and let go of the anger? I know that I'm commanded to, but I don't know how. Sometimes, it feels like anger is its own reward.