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Jordache
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So as a teenager I went from being average and feeling like I weighed 300 lbs. to being about 50 lbs. overweight and being oblivious to it to becoming anorexic. Because of my medical condition food has always been something I could control. While I dont fall into exactly the same traps I did when I was 16 I still have an anorexic mind which during different seasons leads me to doing some pretty stupid things like walking through gang territory in the dark because I need the exercise, drinking diet coke and coffee for breakfast, skipping multiple meals, walking 7.5 miles to church when several people have offered to take me. I know it's illogical, but that just makes me feel all the more stupid for feeling like I have to do it.
I don't want to think like this anymore. I don't want to "gain" a pound and immediately start planning what stupid thing I can do to get rid of it as fast as possible.
I don't want to think like this anymore. I don't want to "gain" a pound and immediately start planning what stupid thing I can do to get rid of it as fast as possible.