I am making this is as serious as I can you see my whole life all I have known is suffering in almost every flavor starviation from my birth torture bieng drugged secually abused it was considered the worst case of abuse in texas and from my birth to now looking back all I have seemed to know is suffering I have xperienced about every flaovr of suffering you can think of. I had no choice but to go the er yet again yesterday and I think I finally broke I looked at my life abd fubakky ht me I realized as much as I try to be optimistic as much as I do all I can to pretend that I am just being a crybaby a victim the same song sung over and over I relaized I actually am being way to hard on myself sometimes people really just are that victims no one chooses the life they were set in and trying to be stong is just to exhausting
But then it hit me again I have known almost every kind of suffering yes it has destoied me but I from the very first decree I made when I was saved that I wanted to be life I wanted to strngthen to encourage and build I wanted to expose the heart of our father the funny thing is even back then I knew the cost would be great but I accepted the cost.
but in the er yesterday the cries of anguish I heard everyone desperate for help but the hospital being overowrked and understaffed it hurt so bad inside hearing it why couldn't just be able to simply send them heaing somehow why could I not do anything to help them?
This is not a mere prayer request I have known pain and hearing theirt cries........ if prayer has power then listen to my stpry hear the unhead cries and let him lead you such people do not need positive well meaning words they are the hidden unheard deeply hurt and deeply suffering they need the real thing they cried out they were going through anguish that made me pour tears ny heart abnd sould was in such anguish and the doctors considered sending me to mental institute but even last night I dreamed about these cries from deep in the soul and I couldn't do a thing
But this last er trip I heard so many cryihng
But then it hit me again I have known almost every kind of suffering yes it has destoied me but I from the very first decree I made when I was saved that I wanted to be life I wanted to strngthen to encourage and build I wanted to expose the heart of our father the funny thing is even back then I knew the cost would be great but I accepted the cost.
but in the er yesterday the cries of anguish I heard everyone desperate for help but the hospital being overowrked and understaffed it hurt so bad inside hearing it why couldn't just be able to simply send them heaing somehow why could I not do anything to help them?
This is not a mere prayer request I have known pain and hearing theirt cries........ if prayer has power then listen to my stpry hear the unhead cries and let him lead you such people do not need positive well meaning words they are the hidden unheard deeply hurt and deeply suffering they need the real thing they cried out they were going through anguish that made me pour tears ny heart abnd sould was in such anguish and the doctors considered sending me to mental institute but even last night I dreamed about these cries from deep in the soul and I couldn't do a thing
But this last er trip I heard so many cryihng
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