So some good news and bad news. I think my looong backsliding is finally over. But the bad news is after I was feeling fine and dandy I suddenly felt sooo very wrong and doubts and awful images swirled in my brain for a few minutes. Basically tonight I recomitted myself to God and finally was urged to say prayers again to stop my temptations (not just repent after I sinned) and it worked and I felt I should start focusing more on God take a long break from gaming and other such stuff and focus on him. Then while I was falling asleep doubt came back and the images and distubing stuff came back. Im assuming it the Devil doesnt like it im back on track but im fine now.
Satan does not like anything going God's way, because he hates Him, so your getting back on track with the Lord is not going to make the prince of this world very happy.
I don't like demonic attacks .. who does .. but they can actually be a sign of where we're really at in our walks and/or in our ministries, because the devil and his demons don't seem to waste much of their time on those of us who are living as lukewarm Christians. Why would they?
A book that really helped me begin to understand what was going on, IOW, begin to understand how the demons operated in my life and why, is a collection of short stories by C.S. Lewis called,
The Screwtape Letters. It's a bit of an odd read because Lewis wrote all of these stories from the demons' POV (so, for instance, when God is referred to in this book, He is called "The Enemy"

). It's fictional, of course, but nothing has given me a better sense of what's going on behind the scenes (so to speak) in the unseen world all around us .. cf
Ephesians 6:12, and helped me recognize demonic attacks for what they are, than Lewis',
The Screwtape Letters has.
You can read it for free online
here, but if you can afford to buy it in book form or on Kindle, the 50th Anniversary Edition (which you can find
here) has a lot of additional/interesting material that makes Lewis' short story collection even more interesting than it already was
For what it's worth, these stories were first read by him live on the radio.
~Deut