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hi im daan, while i was with my long distance bf ive cheated on him wit a guy that i met online lets call him Q he gave me his number , started talking ...on in on we saw each other at his place or sometimes in my area but he didnnt know where i stayed, so we dated for 4 months maximum i dumped him for some issues after i told him its over he got mad n call back the next day and said that the reason i dumped him its not worth it also he said that hes friends said that the reason i dumped him its to lame well he kept bothering me begged me to get back i said no so i had to change my number because of him cuz he kept calling me. since he didnt have my number anmymore ,he wrote me online and said he miss me n luv me,and couples weeks he wrote me again curse at me, call me names,he regreted he met me .....after couples day he wrote back again n said sorry its because he was mad and also mentioned that he saw that ive changed my number that he wanted to call to see how im doing i said im fine he doesnt have to bother he got mad and said bye since than that was our last talking.(also after i told him it was over i spoke to his closest friend he told me that mister Q doesnt care about the break up that he has other girl some like that wateva but if he didnt care why would he kept botherin me like that. its been a year and couple months since we broke up. Now me and my long distance bf are married now im still having fear about mister Q since he didnt want to accept the break up ,thought he was to lame i no he knows we not together but im having thought about what if he looks for me even if its not now or couple years to come tell me he want , he didnt liv me or if im wit my man to say if it for this man that i dump him blablaaaaa or if i see him on the street what will i do.. but i know i wont get to see him but the thoughts kept bothering me im just having fear about him for my future i know he doesnt have my info doesnt know where i live i also moved from where i was ...by having those thoughts in mind in thinking about them make me sick n i knew the thing already happened but im scare that Q dont do something in my future once again im married now but he doesnt know that .. what can he does to me ... also he doesnt know where im at... futhermore im gonna be baptise soon like they said when you baptise the old you is dead so u a new person ...when i get baptise ill know the old me is dead whatever ive done is erased but what do i do with this fear that i ive bout that men for my future .i already forgive myself and forgive him and i also had a dream about mister Q that i was somewhere in he sees me he dnt say nothing to me , like he doesnt no me since there were so many people where we were in the dream, i kept talking he didnt say a word didnt give me any attention i saw him talking to a girl that i knew but she passed away.so please how do i stop those thoughts bout him tht he gonna do some to me in the future , that he going to look for me or harras me or curse me if he see me in the street bymyself or wit my man or should i completely erase him in my mind like we didnt met cuz he can do nothing to me what so ever in the future . give me any advices you have on this thxxx