Barely functioning

[Scarlett7297]

I feel I am barely functioning and very depressed inside. There could be many ways and changes in my mindset that I have tried and even medications but I am hardly having any hope especially because of the condition of my house. All the people in my family are diagnosed with a mental illness and are on mental medicines. My dad and I have depression and are on antidepressants. My mom , bro and sis have psychosis and on antipsychotics. My mom has delusional disorder while my bro and sis have Schizophrenia. My mom's delusional disorder has flared up recently after we moved to another city. She has 'delusion of infidelity' against my dad , she keeps thinking he is cheating on her despite several proofs and checking phone and everything. She preoccupies herself exploring dad's things while he is away and googling this and that. Her medicine combinations were even recently changed and she was put on new antipsychotics or increased dosages and despite that she had bouts of suspicions. We have come to our hometown back again because of all this for a few days...away from dad's workplace city. She wants to be here and keep her 3 children with her. My sister despite having Schizophrenia found a job in that city where dad works. My mom is asking her to leave her job and asking all 3 of us to stay back in the hometown and villainizing my dad and we know for sure my dad is innocent and is calmly putting up with the anger outbursts and bad words spat at him by mom and recurrent checking of his phone and asking him questions. After seeing the condition of my home and the absolute lack of any joy but only infirmities, I am disheartened within and even tempted. I having depression myself see no colors in this world even though I try to and thus I don't have anything grand to ask God...anything that i think could make me happier except if all my family members were completely healed despite strong evidence that people with psychosis ever recover and that 90% of depressed people relapse.... what hope do I live with...for the end to come..for Jesus to come...yes..but then what now...what now? What about this life..? How to smile and laugh when sickness is present? In dad's workplace city we would attend Church too. Since we are in our hometown we are resting at home today..and we personally don't connect with the Church we used to go here. I don't know what to do...study? I am trying to for my entrance exams...but I am too depressed and unable to focus.

 

[Roughsoul1991]

I feel I am barely functioning and very depressed inside. There could be many ways and changes in my mindset that I have tried and even medications but I am hardly having any hope especially because of the condition of my house. All the people in my family are diagnosed with a mental illness and are on mental medicines. My dad and I have depression and are on antidepressants. My mom , bro and sis have psychosis and on antipsychotics. My mom has delusional disorder while my bro and sis have Schizophrenia. My mom's delusional disorder has flared up recently after we moved to another city. She has 'delusion of infidelity' against my dad , she keeps thinking he is cheating on her despite several proofs and checking phone and everything. She preoccupies herself exploring dad's things while he is away and googling this and that. Her medicine combinations were even recently changed and she was put on new antipsychotics or increased dosages and despite that she had bouts of suspicions. We have come to our hometown back again because of all this for a few days...away from dad's workplace city. She wants to be here and keep her 3 children with her. My sister despite having Schizophrenia found a job in that city where dad works. My mom is asking her to leave her job and asking all 3 of us to stay back in the hometown and villainizing my dad and we know for sure my dad is innocent and is calmly putting up with the anger outbursts and bad words spat at him by mom and recurrent checking of his phone and asking him questions. After seeing the condition of my home and the absolute lack of any joy but only infirmities, I am disheartened within and even tempted. I having depression myself see no colors in this world even though I try to and thus I don't have anything grand to ask God...anything that i think could make me happier except if all my family members were completely healed despite strong evidence that people with psychosis ever recover and that 90% of depressed people relapse.... what hope do I live with...for the end to come..for Jesus to come...yes..but then what now...what now? What about this life..? How to smile and laugh when sickness is present? In dad's workplace city we would attend Church too. Since we are in our hometown we are resting at home today..and we personally don't connect with the Church we used to go here. I don't know what to do...study? I am trying to for my entrance exams...but I am too depressed and unable to focus.

I am sorry to hear of such hardship. Stay up to date with your Doctor because the medication could be part of the problem as well.

Spend time to rest and pray for peace. Read the passages where Jesus commanded the storm to be still and how could that speak into your personal life?

Do your best to get connected with other Christians which will help more light to dispel the darkness.

Find time alone to meditate and cry out to God. Tell Him all your fears, worries, sins, pain, etc. Be honest with your feelings.

Your not defeated, your at war. War in both the mental and spiritual realm.

Praying for you. Depression is difficult but with God we can find our strength. With God you need the church family to love on you in these times of hardships.

You may not be able to change the atmosphere which may mean one day you will have to separate from the atmosphere that is killing you. You may have to put distance between you and the unhealthy environment. But until then, get connected to the family of Christ and focus on God.

 

[shittim]

Yes the medication may be a part of the problem.
Speak the word, read the word, do the word, He can and will heal anything it is His very nature, Put a picture of Him everywhere in your home, keep a picture of Jesus in the picture of the mind.

 

[MessengerofTruth]

I would Highly encourage you to listen to praise and worship music.

Tune your heart to sing His praise.

I know it is hard when you feel depressed, But I would do it anyway.

I've had to many times and that is just what we need, to turn our eyes upon our LORD, the Great I Am!

He is everything we need for all things.

I have found that often times hardship comes to grow me to look to Him more dependently.

I am here for you if you ever need to talk. Love always...

 

[oldman]

Spot on is this

"I would Highly encourage you to listen to praise and worship music.

Tune your heart to sing His praise. "

 

[Billyd]

I feel I am barely functioning and very depressed inside. There could be many ways and changes in my mindset that I have tried and even medications but I am hardly having any hope especially because of the condition of my house. All the people in my family are diagnosed with a mental illness and are on mental medicines. My dad and I have depression and are on antidepressants. My mom , bro and sis have psychosis and on antipsychotics. My mom has delusional disorder while my bro and sis have Schizophrenia. My mom's delusional disorder has flared up recently after we moved to another city. She has 'delusion of infidelity' against my dad , she keeps thinking he is cheating on her despite several proofs and checking phone and everything. She preoccupies herself exploring dad's things while he is away and googling this and that. Her medicine combinations were even recently changed and she was put on new antipsychotics or increased dosages and despite that she had bouts of suspicions. We have come to our hometown back again because of all this for a few days...away from dad's workplace city. She wants to be here and keep her 3 children with her. My sister despite having Schizophrenia found a job in that city where dad works. My mom is asking her to leave her job and asking all 3 of us to stay back in the hometown and villainizing my dad and we know for sure my dad is innocent and is calmly putting up with the anger outbursts and bad words spat at him by mom and recurrent checking of his phone and asking him questions. After seeing the condition of my home and the absolute lack of any joy but only infirmities, I am disheartened within and even tempted. I having depression myself see no colors in this world even though I try to and thus I don't have anything grand to ask God...anything that i think could make me happier except if all my family members were completely healed despite strong evidence that people with psychosis ever recover and that 90% of depressed people relapse.... what hope do I live with...for the end to come..for Jesus to come...yes..but then what now...what now? What about this life..? How to smile and laugh when sickness is present? In dad's workplace city we would attend Church too. Since we are in our hometown we are resting at home today..and we personally don't connect with the Church we used to go here. I don't know what to do...study? I am trying to for my entrance exams...but I am too depressed and unable to focus.

Scarlett, let's start with two things. The first is it focus you life on yourself. Until you remove yourself from your family's problems, their problems will rule your life. Don't let them ruin your life. Next focus yourself on God. Read your Bible. Listen to Christian Music. Seek out Christian friends. Find a Christian fellowship, or Church and join them.

You said that you don't have anything grand to ask God. Maybe you should ask Him to take control of your life, and let Him help you solve the small things.

 

[Subhumanoidal]

You'll never be able to change in that environment. Too many like minded people fueling one anothers mental illness.
Step one, for you, get out of there and into a place that's more peaceful. Currently you are like a person sitting in a fire wondering why you can't cool off.

Once freed from that situation, have biological aspects tested. Hormones, allergies, etc... can cause or increase depression. So make sure all your levels are balanced and you're avoiding any possible triggers from a medical standpoint.

Cliche as it sounds, it's effective, eat healthy, stay on a good sleep schedule and exercise regularly.

If not already try to get some counseling. Sometimes counselors work better because many times they themselves have experienced mental health issues, which has lead them into counseling. As opposed to higher educated helpers that are less likely to have any personal experience, only what they're taught.

You may or may not be able to get past depression, I've had it for over 30 years. Often times it's better to learn how to understand it, how it affects you and work around it than spend lots of time and energy trying to get past it.
Particularly if yours is chemical based and not another medical issue.

 

[FarOutFighter]

Have you tried using cannabis? I know it's not for everyone, but if you are on meds and going to therapy without seeing much results, it is worth it to look into other treatments. Pot works really well for my depression.