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As I have previously mentioned in a couple of other posts, I did not attend church growing up but my family and I prayed during various occasions (during times of struggle, exams, during special meals such as Christmas dinner, etc). I read the children's Bible. So, I had a relationship with Christ in my youth. In college, I started going to campus church where I was baptized and accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. I accepted Christ because I had a personal relationship with Christ. I did not even know about salvation, or even if I heard I was "saved" it did not sink in. During a lot of my 20s, I attended church but did not read the Bible; of course, the sermons did not go into heavy topics that might push people away (heaven and hell, wrath of God, certain characteristics of God, etc.). It wasn't until my grandma (a non-believer) died a few years ago that I was confronted with certain doctrines and I struggled with this for about a year, having anxiety, sleepless nights, and asking, Is this really God? Is this the God I believe? Now, I can write or talk about these issues without getting too emotional. I guess my point here is that I came to know and accept Christ before I knew about certain beliefs. When I accepted Christ, it was not because I wanted to have eternal life but because I had a relationship with Christ. I guess, in a sense I had child-like faith, someone who was drawn towards/loves Christ but did not know much else. However, a few years ago, I found myself struggling. I accept Jesus as my personal savior (I think that is ground into me) but I continue to struggle to make sense of it all. Sometimes, I wish I did not have knowledge of these heavy topics. Anyone who can relate, please post.
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