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In 2009, I was not a christain.
I was a sinner.
I smoked marijuanna.
I drank.
I had so much sex that I couldn't remember who I had and had not slept with.
I met my now fiance in January last yearr.
On New Years '09.
He was a devout christain.
At the time, I hated God. With a passion.
The more he tried to get close to me, the more I pushed him back.
I prayed at night for him to leave me alone.
One night, I convinced my fiance to give into temptationn.
I forceed him to haave sex with me.
Not that I forced really;;
I persuaded.
He gave in.
The condom brokee.
I was distressed.
I screamed, I cried.
We ran to a pharmacy thaat was still open,
bought a morning after pill.
(Theey are NOT the abortion pill; They donot terminate exsisting pregnancies)
When we got home, I was shakinng.
Danny & I dropped to our knees, tears streaming downn both of ouur facees.
&&&&& We prayed.
For three houurs we prayed.
"Dear Lord," we begged, "Father, Dad, God. Bless us with children yeaars from now. Wheen we mayy love and teaach themm."
We crieed and helld each other, whispering for Father to help uss.
I am not pregnant now.
God saved my life and Daniel's.
God is my Father, he has done morre for me than anny one else.
In my darkest houur, he is there. He wraps himselllf arounnd me like sunlight.
He keeps me warm.
He keeps me safe.
He shows me love.
I was a sinner.
I smoked marijuanna.
I drank.
I had so much sex that I couldn't remember who I had and had not slept with.
I met my now fiance in January last yearr.
On New Years '09.
He was a devout christain.
At the time, I hated God. With a passion.
The more he tried to get close to me, the more I pushed him back.
I prayed at night for him to leave me alone.
One night, I convinced my fiance to give into temptationn.
I forceed him to haave sex with me.
Not that I forced really;;
I persuaded.
He gave in.
The condom brokee.
I was distressed.
I screamed, I cried.
We ran to a pharmacy thaat was still open,
bought a morning after pill.
(Theey are NOT the abortion pill; They donot terminate exsisting pregnancies)
When we got home, I was shakinng.
Danny & I dropped to our knees, tears streaming downn both of ouur facees.
&&&&& We prayed.
For three houurs we prayed.
"Dear Lord," we begged, "Father, Dad, God. Bless us with children yeaars from now. Wheen we mayy love and teaach themm."
We crieed and helld each other, whispering for Father to help uss.
I am not pregnant now.
God saved my life and Daniel's.
God is my Father, he has done morre for me than anny one else.
In my darkest houur, he is there. He wraps himselllf arounnd me like sunlight.
He keeps me warm.
He keeps me safe.
He shows me love.