Bulimia and Self-Injury

[ifihadwingz]

hey, you seem to recount my own story! kinda scary lol.
i just want to encourage you to read 'Rachel's Tears'. I nearly killed myself on sunday night, but God used my awsum mum and this book to really bring my spirit back to life.
what about you? do you have any questions?

 

[rjb1116]

that book was amazing! i cried through most of it. there are a lot of things similar about her testimony, to mine it was a great book

 

[Relient_Hawk]

About the poll for me I know one of them led to others... sorry I had to mention that. Rachel's tears hm I need to look that up

 

[amorelife]

I have never been through any of the things the people on this post are talking about. I have gone through a depression that lasted about a year or so. But I never self-harmed, so I don't know the first thing about what goes on when you're doing it or trying not to do it. I would just like to give you some encouragement through a few verses:


Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. – Matthew 11:28-30

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. -Isaiah 41:10 (NIV)

Romans Ch. 8 v.15-17. “For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry “Abba, Father”. The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. Now if we are children, then we are heirs – heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.”

These are just a few I thought might help you with your struggles. I really love the Romans verse. Cry out to God and He will answer your cries. Delight in Him and He will give you the desires of your heart. He will heal the broken hearted and wounds will cease to exist anymore. I pray that you find peace in the Lord, I also pray healing over you, that you will completely be set free from any form of self-mutilation, for God has made you and loves you more than you can imagine. You will no longer need to hurt your body to feel something for He will fill that void and you will become whole in Him. In Jesus' sweet name I pray, AMEN.

 

[auburn_gurl]

I have been in a deep depression since i was 12 years old...I have made many suicide attempts...i think about it daily...cutting is one of my coping methods...cutting to me helps cause it is something i can control..how deep..etc. and the physical pains covers helps stop the emotional pain for a few minutes...i also use drugs (marijuana) and alchol to cope...just to free my mind sometimes....i have turned to church...i gave my heart to jesus feb. 12th of this year...i have cried out to him...i am holding on by a thread hoping one day to come outta this...but who knows...only one person..and i guess in his time not mine he will either let me live or take me out....

 

[rjb1116]

I am in sort of the same situation auburn_girl..When I was twelve, my mom attempted to commit suicide. And when this happened, I went into a state of depression. And I coped with the stress at home by cutting. I cut for almost two years, until I gave my heart to Christ, back in Sept. and I have been free of cutting since then. But what you said about cutting, about how you can control it..I totally agree with that. I was in a situation at home I couldn't control, but I could control how often, how deep, I cut myself. But I will be praying for you. I know its hard. Well, I hope you have a great day, and if you ever need to talk, just send me a message!

 

[FearlessJesusGurl]

If anyone wants to come talk...Ive been down some roads before...Ive been through a lot of this before...and Ill be there for anyone that needs it..
peace

Keep ya head up
~B

 

[mouse630]

hello, I have never been in your situation. however I have been at the opposite side of the spectrum. I use to weigh 143 kilograms. I used to try everything and anything to lose weight. However I have in the last two and a half years lost 54 kilograms and weigh 89.0. I am sure with god help you will be able to overcome this situation.

 

[the_buffest_possum]

im glad i've never been in a state of mind to cut myself or or bite or eat scabs or whatever messed up stuff goes on. God has blessed me with an easy life

 

[I_Believe]

God bless each and everyone of you whom have posted here. Your posts bring tears to my eyes as I remember my own struggles. When you are truly ready to hand it over to God, He will surely deliver you from all of these things. I know this because He has in my life. It took a very loooong time for me to be ready to give it all to Him, but once I did, He delivered. I haven't cut in probably 4 or 5 years, and I had been cutting for over 10 years. I'm not even tempted anymore, but it took a long time to get to that point as well. But as I write this, I am realizing that I am using other means to deal with my pain. Unfortunately I do use other methods of self harm, ex... overeating. But I am ready to give that over as well. I came tonight looking to see if there was a weight loss forum and found this one somehow instead. I'm so glad I did, because it helped me understand that I hadn't completely overcome those self harm tactics, I had only switched to a slightly more acceptable form. WOW... Prayers for all of you

 

[BellaFlor]

Well, I have been struggling with depression and low self-esteem. And well, I can still struggle with this at times. I have been having some tough times these last months, and still it is Hard to me at moments. Right now I don't want to tell so much about my situation, because it still hurts, and although I am now also feeling better these days and God is healing and helping me through, it is still something I find Hard to accept for happening.

 

[NoTearsShed]

Well i have suffored of depression, stress , eating dissorder both eating to much junk food & then not wanting to eat. & feeling ugly,i had my little moments were i felt pretty & sometimes i would look in the mirror i guess i wanted to take it all in & remember i looked pretty for that while, Since in middle school i was called from all the ugly names you can think off, even a beatle juice T_T & then my freshman year i got uglier... then finally when i was 15 i changed... but even at times when a guy i had liked for a while said i was ugly,would not even look at me once, i would feel like i was still ugly no matter what.
For me it was also a year ago,
After i started working i started getting stressed for only getting from 4-6 hours of sleep & eating one meal only or 2 meals, i used to eat up to 6 meals a day so it was a big quick change for me, then i would go out at night & then after time it started catching up with me & noticed when once i sat down & saw i had no energy to get up & just wanted to sit there & sleep, after that the whole depression started kicking in, for a while i felt numb & dead inside, like i dint feel anything but sadness & anger. or sometimes just anger.

Then in the end of november something lets call it accident (my fault) & got a concusion went to the hospital after that i changed & became a new Born christian.
I had always believed in God since i was little but for a while i got seprated from him & started focusing on other things.
I am glad i had that accident... i mean not some surcumstances but i am glad i past out because after that i was able to be saved again after my mom prayed for me to be forgiven & desperration mode, & i have changed many of my ways & others ways im working on, i used to feel completely lonely & now i dont, I mean honestly i do have my little moments BUT that is self awareness which is not good & im working on ignoring because i know no matter what as long as God is with me im not alone. & he is the ONLY one who never left me or ignored me by saying well im busy come back later, or something like that.
I wont lie, i still do have my little sad moments here & there & thats when i let stupid anger or sadness moments get to me BUT they are not like they used to be in the past, not everyday & they dont last long.

 

[NoTearsShed]

Well, I have been struggling with depression and low self-esteem. And well, I can still struggle with this at times. I have been having some tough times these last months, and still it is Hard to me at moments. Right now I don't want to tell so much about my situation, because it still hurts, and although I am now also feeling better these days and God is healing and helping me through, it is still something I find Hard to accept for happening.

*hugs* i understand the whole depression & low self esteem, i have finally got over the low self esteem but i wont lie i still have my little moments were i dont even want to look in the mirror.
May i ask a question? If so is that you in the picture that you have as your avatar?
If so girly you are NOT ugly honestly your not =)
even though its your side your still not ugly.I cant say you look "really pretty" because i would be liying because it does not show your full front face, but from the side i can say you dont look ugly, & you look more "natural pretty" =) it looks like you dont need make up to look pretty =)
I how ever do need it >_>

 

[BellaFlor]

This is a picture of me without make up, that day I actually felt like I looked pretty enough without any make up on, and well, I most feel I look mostly Very Good after showering, also with my hair, etc...

And this is made the same day as my avatar. A picture of my front. But wearing eyeliner and mascara Lately that's the only make-up I wear, if I put on any make-up at all. Few times that I put up a lot more like make-up cream, eyeshadow, lipstick or lip gloss, etc.... Actually, I am more liking myself without any lipstick nor lipgloss these days, I seldom wear it. Unless I am putting a whole set of make-up on me, then I put it on so it doesn't crashes with the rest of my look

 

[star_gazer]

I was raised in a Christian home and committed my life to God when I was 7. My life seemed to be going quite well. Then, right before I reached puberty things started to change. When I was 12 I began experiencing back pain which I still feel to this day. Unfortunately, depression really hit me hard when I was 13. At age 15 I developed an eating disorder (bulimia) and began self-injuring (cutting). Now it's three years later and I still struggle with the aforementioned issues along with generalized anxiety disorder and severely low self-esteem. <snip>

I'd love to discuss these (and any other) issues with anyone, especially others who have struggled with similar issues. Feel free to ask me whatever, I'm not shy about answering!

Let me suggest that you may be suffering from a chronic parasitic infection. Some og these thigsn are not detectible by normal means. Please check out www.drnatura.com The products are "colonix" and "paranil" I think a parasite clease could eliminate the anxienty symptoms and back pain you are describing. But be aware, what comes out looks exactly like they show you. I suffered from anxienty and intrusive racing thoughts until I did this. I passed severa; three to six inch organism that were probably in my body since I was a toddler. The anxienty and intrusive racing thoughts as well as chronic digestive problems went away with them. Try it please. This may be a medical explanation for your problems!

 

[NoTearsShed]

This is a picture of me without make up, that day I actually felt like I looked pretty enough without any make up on, and well, I most feel I look mostly Very Good after showering, also with my hair, etc...

And this is made the same day as my avatar. A picture of my front. But wearing eyeliner and mascara Lately that's the only make-up I wear, if I put on any make-up at all. Few times that I put up a lot more like make-up cream, eyeshadow, lipstick or lip gloss, etc.... Actually, I am more liking myself without any lipstick nor lipgloss these days, I seldom wear it. Unless I am putting a whole set of make-up on me, then I put it on so it doesn't crashes with the rest of my look

*-* your a natural beauty =)
I would not dare post a picture of me without make up....
I like your avatar picture(the one your looking at the camera) looks really cute =)

 

[BellaFlor]

Well, I guess we all can be more or less natural beauties. Sometimes I feel like I look pretty and sometimes not. We all feel like this, and many times others sees us as much more goodlooking than we often do too. We live in a hard world! And still I can compare myself with many others, and feel like I have to competite.

I have always been compared with my younger sister by my parents and by others, that really broke me down, to be honest, and I always thought I was more ugly than goodlooking, especially beside her I always felt like fading away. Also because of what everyone else thought and said, also saying she is more intelligent and mature. I have been put so much down that it angers me all the hurt and lies told to me, I always had to competite with something, I felt like. And I still struggle with it to this day, just some few times I can feel some glimpses of beauty, apreciation, and happiness over me, most when I don´t think about my younger sister, actually, and my parents. It is still a battle to me to try keeping away hate, bitterness and anger in my thoughts ´cause of how unfair they treated me and how much they wanted to be overprotecting me and still want to try controlling over my life, still now when I am married and moved away, I hate that! But now I do are happy I am a bit far away from them, and I beleive God will do some more healing work in me, restoration and building me up again! That is also what I Need the most, staying away and focusing more in myself, my husband, my new family in law, getting new friends, and in God too the most, ofcourse!

 

[NoTearsShed]

Bella *hugs* sorry to hear that, thats messed up I hate when people do that put down others or always compare them to another person i mean yeah if you compare the once okay but honestly no one asked for their opinion, if they dont have anything nice to say they should just keep it to themselfs, you wernt doing anything to be told that your sister is better than you,
They might think that but you know what maybe you looked better or maybe you were smarter so they tried to cheer her up & in doing so they hurt you, or maybe they really did like her better ...sadly theres parents like that.
Thats good that you are working with God to fight that anger after all it only stresses you which stressing is useless & no good.
I think your a natural beauty who dont need make up to look pretty =)
The black hair looks good on you especially since your skin color is paler than mine, it looks better since it brings out something in you that makes you grab more attention & in a good way =)

 

[NoTearsShed]

You know these past few days i have had A LOT of feelings & not all happy ones mostly sad, well today i was really happy =D Thank God for that =D
But the days before & i learned instead of trying to hurt ourselfs, others or giving up no matter how hurt we are or how bad it is we should run to God & ask forgiveness for what we done talk to him about how you feel tell him whats going on he listens =D & he heals, If you really want to cry then cry but cry to God not to your friends or parents but to God first =)

 

[wwjd_kilden]

Totally agree with aussie. one never knows what reactions one will get for admitting depression or other things

That's a good point Notears Friends are important, but only God can fully heal us.

"1 Hear my cry, O God; attend unto my prayer. 2 From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
3 For thou hast been a shelter for me, and a strong tower from the enemy.
4 I will abide in thy tabernacle for ever: I will trust in the covert of thy wings. Selah."