There has been no transformation at the alter or vivid dream, just urges. and i would TOTALLY miss if i wasn't trying to ask God and keep my eyes on him. . . .there are SO many times where i've fallen from my path thinking THIS is the right way to find that i stopped listening to God and started listening to myself.
i don't think God will out right tell me what my calling is cause i tend to lean on my own strength the moment i THINK i know what i'm doing. plus life is more of an adventure this way. right now i'm just trying to help as much as a can at my church doing whatever they need help with (and its a LOT cause we have a tiny church with even less ppl. ) ^_^