I hope you feel better tomorrow. Believe it or not, I did read your post. I rarely read such long posts, but I am a musician myself and found it interesting. Still, I didn’t see any specific musical plan, other than to continue learning. Do you want to become a professional Christian musician? I understand most professional musicians don’t make much money. In other words, you need to have something to fall back on in case your musicianship doesn’t earn you much money. Perhaps you will go to college and study music, which would allow you to teach music if you didn’t succeed as a musician. Perhaps you will study other things while continuing your music pursuits.