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Today I returned to sexual sin, like a dog to its vomit. I am sick that I have sinned again in a way that years ago nearly cost me my family. I fought hard then for victory over this sin, but over the last several years, I returned to pornography and, more recently, to cyber sex. In the incident today, God did keep me from delving into my sin as deeply as I did before, but I am concerned that now that the horse is out of the barn, I will find it harder to resist continuing in this sin.
I am confessing here so that I may be healed. I am afraid my wife would leave me this time were she to find out or I were to confess to her, and that I would lose the love and respect of my children. My wife was so badly hurt by me in the past and fought hard to forgive me. I don't think my marriage can withstand this again. I realize that foresight of this should have stopped me from sinning in the first place. At the same time, part of me wonders whether God will bless me and allow me to repent from this sin UNLESS I confess to her.
I need to fight hard and I need your prayers and God's blessing and forgiveness.
I am confessing here so that I may be healed. I am afraid my wife would leave me this time were she to find out or I were to confess to her, and that I would lose the love and respect of my children. My wife was so badly hurt by me in the past and fought hard to forgive me. I don't think my marriage can withstand this again. I realize that foresight of this should have stopped me from sinning in the first place. At the same time, part of me wonders whether God will bless me and allow me to repent from this sin UNLESS I confess to her.
I need to fight hard and I need your prayers and God's blessing and forgiveness.