I think I have trouble with consistency of emotional control and balance with regards to bible reading and simply like and direction etc. I cannot seem to get into a daily rythym of a simple set of tasks. 1) read a chapter or more per day of the bible, 2) Drink water not sugar etc or hot drinks/ food drinks etc (except protein shake etc), 3) walk when not working, 4) 5) 6) 7) etc.
I seem to go nowhere as a christian in all areas of life. I saw so much potential a few years ago but the covid lockdowns killed society and any ideas or will to do anything. I have no drive or clue anymore and simply do not want to wake up as it seems all life is over forever. I feel lost as to everything and the bible helps with nothing because it takes too long to read to get to a useful part. I really wanted to remember more useful stuff but God showed me "memory palaces" were anti-christian (of dark poor ways). So I draw a blank every day since the covid period about 2020 ish. It all seems futile and everyone and his buddy devil seems to be "winning" even though Jesus has already won.
I had such big dreams as a christian of what I could achieve or attempt to do, but nothing seems to go anywhere and now after covid I am more bitter and a worse christian than when I started. I am weaker and backslid during that time due to false info. I dont know where to go, what to do, when to do it, and see no out, no light. I have done the internet rounds for 10+years and seen nearly everything anyone would mention. So most likely a video will not help unless it is specifically of use and not a general sermon. Im the type of person who like being told what to do and when to do it, in a nice way obviously; or to have a book / manual / list of "get on with this" sort of things. Not, read and guess what to do from random videos of various sects of christianity, whilst not having resources or help in any "big way". That is a bit much for me. So this is why I am asking for prayer. Thanks.
I pray for direction and consistency as a christian and in training, and work, and health, and wealth, and progress in all good ways. I ask God the Father these things in Jesus name, Amen.
I seem to go nowhere as a christian in all areas of life. I saw so much potential a few years ago but the covid lockdowns killed society and any ideas or will to do anything. I have no drive or clue anymore and simply do not want to wake up as it seems all life is over forever. I feel lost as to everything and the bible helps with nothing because it takes too long to read to get to a useful part. I really wanted to remember more useful stuff but God showed me "memory palaces" were anti-christian (of dark poor ways). So I draw a blank every day since the covid period about 2020 ish. It all seems futile and everyone and his buddy devil seems to be "winning" even though Jesus has already won.
I had such big dreams as a christian of what I could achieve or attempt to do, but nothing seems to go anywhere and now after covid I am more bitter and a worse christian than when I started. I am weaker and backslid during that time due to false info. I dont know where to go, what to do, when to do it, and see no out, no light. I have done the internet rounds for 10+years and seen nearly everything anyone would mention. So most likely a video will not help unless it is specifically of use and not a general sermon. Im the type of person who like being told what to do and when to do it, in a nice way obviously; or to have a book / manual / list of "get on with this" sort of things. Not, read and guess what to do from random videos of various sects of christianity, whilst not having resources or help in any "big way". That is a bit much for me. So this is why I am asking for prayer. Thanks.
I pray for direction and consistency as a christian and in training, and work, and health, and wealth, and progress in all good ways. I ask God the Father these things in Jesus name, Amen.
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