I understand, and when I tried to correct what I had written I used up too much time. I am diagnosed with major depressive disorder and I tried the pharma route first and became bi-polar and easily confused and or irritated, I even got lost taking the bus to school.
I don't reccomend anyone to stop taking their meds. Without consulting their doctor at least. Mine told me that he had great success with cognitive disorders, that can mimic depression, with folic acid and and thiamin and issued me some. Soon the fog began to clear, I could concentrate, I stopped feeling lost and could go places again. I made the decision to stop the meds because I have self control over myself now when depressed. When manic, no way.
I am a V.A. patient, and it takes 3 mos to get an appointment and the nearest walk in psych clinic is 90 miles each way, I don't have a car.
I know that it is neurological and I am not a bad person. But when I am lonely and depressed what I know dosn't help much.
Thank you. May I drop a line to you here sometime?
I know I am bossy and what I say doesn’t really matter. But I really think you should be under the care of a psychiatrist since you are bipolar. Antidepressants did not cause you to become bipolar.
Bipolar patients who are not on their meds do not have as a high a quality of life as bipolar patients who are ON their meds.
Patients should NEVER take themselves off of medication, whether they are taking medication for high blood pressure or for being manic.
If you are not on medication, you will probably have manic episodes. You can not prevent them without medicine.
I worked in a mental hospital for five years, and my father has severe bipolar disorder and is paranoid. The difference between a medicated mentally ill person and an unmedicated one is like night and day.
I realize your former medications made you disoriented and drowsy, sometimes it takes a while to find out what medications you need in order to function. Since you have no transportation, I would suggest you call the hospital and ask to speak to a case worker to get you a taxi ride to the hospital. Tax payers provide money for this service. You are entitled to a ride to a psychiatrist.
You could respond, of course. But I will be a broken record, get under a psychiatrist’s care, and take your meds, and NEVER take yourself off of medication.