Depression

[ATSTD]

I haven't been depressed in a really long time but today, this hour or two, I've been experiencing some serious depression. Not sure if it is a chemical imbalance or just straight up real depression, which I think it is real depression.

If I'm not as active on here, I'm probably just spending time in prayer. I don't have energy for much. Just feel like dying.

I'm probably really hard to be around. I think people avoid me because of my beliefs, because I have such strong convictions.

I've been through a lot of hardship early on and all throughout my life, even after becoming a Christian and I'm sure there is just more to come, just by being a bible believing follower of Jesus, the most persecuted and oppressed of all peoples on the planet.

I've thought about ending my life many times.

For those that don't know, if you end your life as a Christian, you don't go straight to hell. That is just made up.

I don't think God wants who truly suffer to suffer their entire life and if they want to end it, that it is up to that person.

I used to care that it would hurt my friends and family but what I've experienced in the last few years, everyone walked away. They all fell and didn't have the strength to be supportive or maybe I just didn't need the support anymore. God knows.

I'm probably more independent now than ever, though dependent on God for everything.

Tomorrow will be a new day.

 

[Magenta]

2 Timothy 3 verse 12 ~ Everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted.

 

[bluejean_bible]

I haven't been depressed in a really long time but today, this hour or two, I've been experiencing some serious depression. Not sure if it is a chemical imbalance or just straight up real depression, which I think it is real depression.

If I'm not as active on here, I'm probably just spending time in prayer. I don't have energy for much. Just feel like dying.

I'm probably really hard to be around. I think people avoid me because of my beliefs, because I have such strong convictions.

I've been through a lot of hardship early on and all throughout my life, even after becoming a Christian and I'm sure there is just more to come, just by being a bible believing follower of Jesus, the most persecuted and oppressed of all peoples on the planet.

I've thought about ending my life many times.

For those that don't know, if you end your life as a Christian, you don't go straight to hell. That is just made up.

I don't think God wants who truly suffer to suffer their entire life and if they want to end it, that it is up to that person.

I used to care that it would hurt my friends and family but what I've experienced in the last few years, everyone walked away. They all fell and didn't have the strength to be supportive or maybe I just didn't need the support anymore. God knows.

I'm probably more independent now than ever, though dependent on God for everything.

Tomorrow will be a new day.

*Sending hugs and prayers

We are here for you.

 

[Gideon300]

I haven't been depressed in a really long time but today, this hour or two, I've been experiencing some serious depression. Not sure if it is a chemical imbalance or just straight up real depression, which I think it is real depression.

If I'm not as active on here, I'm probably just spending time in prayer. I don't have energy for much. Just feel like dying.

I'm probably really hard to be around. I think people avoid me because of my beliefs, because I have such strong convictions.

I've been through a lot of hardship early on and all throughout my life, even after becoming a Christian and I'm sure there is just more to come, just by being a bible believing follower of Jesus, the most persecuted and oppressed of all peoples on the planet.

I've thought about ending my life many times.

For those that don't know, if you end your life as a Christian, you don't go straight to hell. That is just made up.

I don't think God wants who truly suffer to suffer their entire life and if they want to end it, that it is up to that person.

I used to care that it would hurt my friends and family but what I've experienced in the last few years, everyone walked away. They all fell and didn't have the strength to be supportive or maybe I just didn't need the support anymore. God knows.

I'm probably more independent now than ever, though dependent on God for everything.

Tomorrow will be a new day.

Depression stems from hopelessness. God has promised us a future and a hope. Command the devil to get off you, off your mind and off your feelings. Start to confess that God's plan for you is perfect.

I've been where you are. Suicidal thoughts are from Satan. Jesus came that we we might have abundant life. He Himself is that life. Start to declare, "Lord Jesus, you are my way, my truth and my Life".

This Geoff Bullock song helped me through some dark times:

 

[HealthAndHappiness]

I haven't been depressed in a really long time but today, this hour or two, I've been experiencing some serious depression. Not sure if it is a chemical imbalance or just straight up real depression, which I think it is real depression.

If I'm not as active on here, I'm probably just spending time in prayer. I don't have energy for much. Just feel like dying.

I'm probably really hard to be around. I think people avoid me because of my beliefs, because I have such strong convictions.

I've been through a lot of hardship early on and all throughout my life, even after becoming a Christian and I'm sure there is just more to come, just by being a bible believing follower of Jesus, the most persecuted and oppressed of all peoples on the planet.

I've thought about ending my life many times.

For those that don't know, if you end your life as a Christian, you don't go straight to hell. That is just made up.

I don't think God wants who truly suffer to suffer their entire life and if they want to end it, that it is up to that person.

I used to care that it would hurt my friends and family but what I've experienced in the last few years, everyone walked away. They all fell and didn't have the strength to be supportive or maybe I just didn't need the support anymore. God knows.

I'm probably more independent now than ever, though dependent on God for everything.

Tomorrow will be a new day.

I can empathize.
I think there's some archives on depression. It might be helpful if there's something to glean from that information.
Remember that exercise is free as is sunshine and fresh air. Taking a walk every day shouldn't be a high risk activity. Set a time in the mornings and keep it up. Let me know if it makes a difference.
I by no means think that's the only thing to do, but it's a start and I would call that progress. Short sleeves if it's warm enough, so the morning sun can penetrate. There's a lot of Red Light therapy treatments people are trending about now. That's included in the package along with some D3.

I sure hope you are feeling better soon.

 

[Suze]

I haven't been depressed in a really long time but today, this hour or two, I've been experiencing some serious depression. Not sure if it is a chemical imbalance or just straight up real depression, which I think it is real depression.

If I'm not as active on here, I'm probably just spending time in prayer. I don't have energy for much. Just feel like dying.

I'm probably really hard to be around. I think people avoid me because of my beliefs, because I have such strong convictions.

I've been through a lot of hardship early on and all throughout my life, even after becoming a Christian and I'm sure there is just more to come, just by being a bible believing follower of Jesus, the most persecuted and oppressed of all peoples on the planet.

I've thought about ending my life many times.

For those that don't know, if you end your life as a Christian, you don't go straight to hell. That is just made up.

I don't think God wants who truly suffer to suffer their entire life and if they want to end it, that it is up to that person.

I used to care that it would hurt my friends and family but what I've experienced in the last few years, everyone walked away. They all fell and didn't have the strength to be supportive or maybe I just didn't need the support anymore. God knows.

I'm probably more independent now than ever, though dependent on God for everything.

Tomorrow will be a new day.

Before I knew the Truth I was numb . Probably suffering from PTSD but I don't know for sure . I never had any help dealing with my childhood . As a teenager I tried to kill myself a few times , God always saved me , though I didn't know that at the time . Suddenly in my mid twenties I ( I ? Not really 😜 ) I decided I wanted to know about God and the best place to go would b to His Word the Bible . I've never looked back . God saved my life and my sanity . If He hadn't prompted me into reading His Word I would have killed myself for sure . Ive never felt that blackness since I started reading the Bible every day . I do get a bit anxious sometimes , mostly to do with this world and the things I c going on in it and I'm not talking politics etc . It's the little things , on an intimate level . Suffering , fears and insecurities , cold heartedness and cruelty . When I c people and animals suffering , that upsets me but what upsets me even more is the world's indifference to the suffering that's going on in it .
Three things help me , the biggest and most effective is reading the Bible , hearing God's Words , feeling connected to Him , being reminded of the amazing and wonderful things to come and that I am going to b in the thick of it ! Taking part in God's plan for this earth , that it shall b filled with His Glory and I shall c that ! God does not lie , His Word will come to pass and I think we r in the last days for sure .
The other two things r sensory , some good music , energetic and joyful and/or , I put my coat and shoes on and go outside for a long walk , just being under God's sky , feeling His wind , hearing those birds that He so beautifully created , I feel connected to God through nature , His beautiful and awesome creation and I am a little part of it . One thing u have to know for sure and to keep in your heart is that u r very very much loved , by Jesus , by God . They know u intimately , faults and all and they live u very much and they want u with them , but not until they say so , u have to trust them 100 per cent and stay in this life until they decide to take u . You r not your own , u r bought with a price , your life is in Christ , in this world as long as they say so because , u can bear it , u can cope , u can live another day because they r with u , right there in the room where u r . All day every day . U must trust them and stick with them because they have plans for u , awesome things u can't even imagine . U have been selected for awesomeness . Rejoice in His love for u . Wonderful things r coming , open your eyes and c your God , how He has been working in your life all through it , right up to this very second , and way beyond .

 

[crmvet]

Psalm 18:28

 

[Brasspen]

My Pastor said, That depression is 'Hidden Anger.'

 

[HealthAndHappiness]

I haven't been depressed in a really long time but today, this hour or two, I've been experiencing some serious depression. Not sure if it is a chemical imbalance or just straight up real depression, which I think it is real depression.

If I'm not as active on here, I'm probably just spending time in prayer. I don't have energy for much. Just feel like dying.

I'm probably really hard to be around. I think people avoid me because of my beliefs, because I have such strong convictions.

I've been through a lot of hardship early on and all throughout my life, even after becoming a Christian and I'm sure there is just more to come, just by being a bible believing follower of Jesus, the most persecuted and oppressed of all peoples on the planet.

I've thought about ending my life many times.

For those that don't know, if you end your life as a Christian, you don't go straight to hell. That is just made up.

I don't think God wants who truly suffer to suffer their entire life and if they want to end it, that it is up to that person.

I used to care that it would hurt my friends and family but what I've experienced in the last few years, everyone walked away. They all fell and didn't have the strength to be supportive or maybe I just didn't need the support anymore. God knows.

I'm probably more independent now than ever, though dependent on God for everything.

Tomorrow will be a new day.

How are you doing today?
Do you have any family (Christian or natural) nearby?
I would share with them how you are feeling each day, if but briefly.
I no longer have natural family, but asked a couple friends nearby to call me periodically when I had a systemic infection that went throughout my body. There's no shame asking for help and encouragement.
I was praying for you and this came up in my YouTube feed. This counselor makes some good points. Just overlook her one suggestion about yoga, but you already know that.
Be well and blessing for your day!
🍵🙂👍

 

[HealthAndHappiness]

I haven't been depressed in a really long time but today, this hour or two, I've been experiencing some serious depression. Not sure if it is a chemical imbalance or just straight up real depression, which I think it is real depression.

If I'm not as active on here, I'm probably just spending time in prayer. I don't have energy for much. Just feel like dying.

I'm probably really hard to be around. I think people avoid me because of my beliefs, because I have such strong convictions.

I've been through a lot of hardship early on and all throughout my life, even after becoming a Christian and I'm sure there is just more to come, just by being a bible believing follower of Jesus, the most persecuted and oppressed of all peoples on the planet.

I've thought about ending my life many times.

For those that don't know, if you end your life as a Christian, you don't go straight to hell. That is just made up.

I don't think God wants who truly suffer to suffer their entire life and if they want to end it, that it is up to that person.

I used to care that it would hurt my friends and family but what I've experienced in the last few years, everyone walked away. They all fell and didn't have the strength to be supportive or maybe I just didn't need the support anymore. God knows.

I'm probably more independent now than ever, though dependent on God for everything.

Tomorrow will be a new day.

I thought of the number of fellow brothers and sisters here suffering from depression. This is a different, but important perspective that this Psychiatrist MD shares about his profession. One thing I need to correct him on because none of us know it all, is that most olive oils are mixed with cheap harmful seed oils. I avoid olive oil now and use animal fat or coconut oil for frying. Red palm oil is also good for cooking but more expensive. Butter, fish oil and avocados are healthy foods. Remember Dr Peter Breggin? He's the only other psychiatrist who I endorse.

Also, most therapists are unproductive. The previous one I posted previously provides good information IMHO though.

 

[jacko]

What you are experiencing may be spiritual and you may be under attack and need deliverance.
I never thought it was possible and but it happened to me, albeit for like 10 minutes, but I cast out the spirit of distress in Jesus name.
But I won't lie, I was shaken for an entire evening... and worshiped God and prayed fervently for like 1 hour. The next morning I felt fine.

 

[jacko]

What you experienced may be a blessing, you now had the revelation as I had after, you can't even do ANYTHING w/o the Lord's protection, you can't even think. It has kept me humble.

 

[PAC-fit]

I've thought about ending my life many times.

Way back there, at my lowest point, I wasn't too well equipped intellectually, how much?, I thought I'd experiment with this and failed, then a light went off that drowned my reasons for such ignorance, God loves you and wants a good life for you. I won't add to the many fine comments here, all who have taken time to be that extension of His love. Praying for His deep abiding strength to be with you every step of the way!

 

[Bingo]

'I can only hope and pray that one learns to remove themselves from toxic
enviroments that can surely intiminate the mind, often with such falseness
that can cause spiritual turmoil. Pray to know spiritual serenity is an inside endeavor.'
'Amen'

 

[StreetPreacher]

Phil 4:8
Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report, if there be any virtue and if there be any praise, think on these things.

 

[ConfirmByDoing]

I haven't been depressed in a really long time but today, this hour or two, I've been experiencing some serious depression. Not sure if it is a chemical imbalance or just straight up real depression, which I think it is real depression.

If I'm not as active on here, I'm probably just spending time in prayer. I don't have energy for much. Just feel like dying.

I'm probably really hard to be around. I think people avoid me because of my beliefs, because I have such strong convictions.

I've been through a lot of hardship early on and all throughout my life, even after becoming a Christian and I'm sure there is just more to come, just by being a bible believing follower of Jesus, the most persecuted and oppressed of all peoples on the planet.

I've thought about ending my life many times.

For those that don't know, if you end your life as a Christian, you don't go straight to hell. That is just made up.

I don't think God wants who truly suffer to suffer their entire life and if they want to end it, that it is up to that person.

I used to care that it would hurt my friends and family but what I've experienced in the last few years, everyone walked away. They all fell and didn't have the strength to be supportive or maybe I just didn't need the support anymore. God knows.

I'm probably more independent now than ever, though dependent on God for everything.

Tomorrow will be a new day.

I haven't been depressed in a really long time but today, this hour or two, I've been experiencing some serious depression. Not sure if it is a chemical imbalance or just straight up real depression, which I think it is real depression.

If I'm not as active on here, I'm probably just spending time in prayer. I don't have energy for much. Just feel like dying.

I'm probably really hard to be around. I think people avoid me because of my beliefs, because I have such strong convictions.

I've been through a lot of hardship early on and all throughout my life, even after becoming a Christian and I'm sure there is just more to come, just by being a bible believing follower of Jesus, the most persecuted and oppressed of all peoples on the planet.

I've thought about ending my life many times.

For those that don't know, if you end your life as a Christian, you don't go straight to hell. That is just made up.

I don't think God wants who truly suffer to suffer their entire life and if they want to end it, that it is up to that person.

I used to care that it would hurt my friends and family but what I've experienced in the last few years, everyone walked away. They all fell and didn't have the strength to be supportive or maybe I just didn't need the support anymore. God knows.

I'm probably more independent now than ever, though dependent on God for everything.

Tomorrow will be a new day.

First let's submit completely to the Father when we're under attack(Eph 6:12; James 4:7; Jude 1:9). You must first and foremost recognize that this is the case instead of focusing on the temporal. In this case the temporal is the symptom of depression. The Satan will want you to focus on the wrong ideas(John 8:44) keeping you away from the root cause. That being your relationship with the Lord and your focus on the eternal(II Cor 4:16-18; Col 3:1-4)

And ask the Lord to search your heart for the sins you're unaware of. David did this in Psalm ch139(Psalm 139:23, 24). The enemy is constantly planting seeds of darkness for us to ingest in an attempt to weaken the Holy Spirit's light, therefore weakening His strength in you to fight the enemy off. They can't operate where there is sufficient light(John 1:5; Eph 5:10-14; I John 1:5-10)

To commit suicide would display that which opposes knowing Christ(Matt 7:16-20; Gal 5:22, 23). Depression is the lack of joy just like darkness is the lack of light. And you are definitely called to take care of your physical health, which your body is a big part of. You are not your own anymore. This would be unwise to not recognize(I Cor 6:18-20; I Cor 3:16-23)

If you truly belong to Jesus, the devil knows he cannot destroy your soul and eternal life. So he must destroy your testimony which can eternally help others. You ending your own life would do exactly that... that is take away the Lord's work through you(Rev 12:11; I Peter 3:13-17; I John 4:1-5)

May God bless you with these trials to help you ensure these moments in your life(James 1:2-8)

We're here for you!

 

[In3dee]

I'll not give you a sermon, but definitely prayed for you which is what you asked for. And remind you... you are not alone.