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As some of you may know my walk with the Lord hasnt been the greatest. I grew up in a christian home, at a christian school, with many christian friends. When it came time to move to highschool, I had to go to a public school. I made lots of friends and started getting into drinking and drugs. I stopped going to church and started partying. When I was 18 I whent to Mexico with my cousin and did ALOT of partying there. One night i got really drunk and well............did something that I had wanted to wait untill i was maried to do. As the years whent by I continued drinking, druging, having sex and all that other junk. Eventually I got into porn as well. This whole time I still believed in Jesus and considerd myself a christian. I new what i was doing was wrong, but never really gave it much thought. In my senior year of high school, I met my current girlfriend and eventually ended up having a little girl with her. My partying days are pretty much over, but i still live with all those adictions. Ive been with my girlfriend now for 11 years and our daughter is five.
Now for the past few years Ive been living with all this conviction, wondering how God could accept me into heaven considering I was doing all this stuff. I would lay in bed at night and cry till i fell asleep. I would cry because I knew the wrong I had done, and was afaid I had already seald my fait. I also new that the Lord had seen what I had done, ALL of it. Finally about a month ago something clicked in my head. I thought " How can I call myself a christian and spread the word and still do all this. Currently I have pretty much given up all my secular music, which was a Big part in my life. I am currently trying to quit smoking, cigs and pot, Ive decided to quit drinking, which is going prett good. I AM however having a hard time with the whole porn thing. I have been doing ALOT better now that i have this site to come to.
I want the Lord to be the biggest part of my life over all. I want to be filled with him every day. I want all these temptations and addictions to be over.
If you guys could pray for my girlfriend as well? Shes not a believer.
As some of you may know my walk with the Lord hasnt been the greatest. I grew up in a christian home, at a christian school, with many christian friends. When it came time to move to highschool, I had to go to a public school. I made lots of friends and started getting into drinking and drugs. I stopped going to church and started partying. When I was 18 I whent to Mexico with my cousin and did ALOT of partying there. One night i got really drunk and well............did something that I had wanted to wait untill i was maried to do. As the years whent by I continued drinking, druging, having sex and all that other junk. Eventually I got into porn as well. This whole time I still believed in Jesus and considerd myself a christian. I new what i was doing was wrong, but never really gave it much thought. In my senior year of high school, I met my current girlfriend and eventually ended up having a little girl with her. My partying days are pretty much over, but i still live with all those adictions. Ive been with my girlfriend now for 11 years and our daughter is five.
Now for the past few years Ive been living with all this conviction, wondering how God could accept me into heaven considering I was doing all this stuff. I would lay in bed at night and cry till i fell asleep. I would cry because I knew the wrong I had done, and was afaid I had already seald my fait. I also new that the Lord had seen what I had done, ALL of it. Finally about a month ago something clicked in my head. I thought " How can I call myself a christian and spread the word and still do all this. Currently I have pretty much given up all my secular music, which was a Big part in my life. I am currently trying to quit smoking, cigs and pot, Ive decided to quit drinking, which is going prett good. I AM however having a hard time with the whole porn thing. I have been doing ALOT better now that i have this site to come to.
I want the Lord to be the biggest part of my life over all. I want to be filled with him every day. I want all these temptations and addictions to be over.
If you guys could pray for my girlfriend as well? Shes not a believer.