Thanks Dino
Just to clarify a couple of things : So the word "good", in your understanding, means whatever God decides to do ; regardless of how we normally use the word?
And I wouldn't say that I simply invented a concept of God because I preferred him that way. It was based on my experience of encountering God over the years of seeking. And that experience was a deep, warm, embracing love. It certainly got me to question my preconceived ideas, even biblical ones ( I have read the bible). That is why I can't accept God ordering genocide, because I know from my own experience of God that it would be impossible. I guess you wouldn't consider me a correct christian, or even one at all. If I need to accept that God can do such things to be a christian I,m not sure it is for me. Partly why I,m on this site is to test out what I have found and discovered to see if there is a place for me in christianity. Probably not by the looks of things lol!
However, I have and will continue to ask for God's guidance.
I'm not going to attempt to answer his response to you, but you said that you encountered a God that was deep, warm and embracing, right? Where did you encounter this? Because on a basic level, that is who God is. He is altogether loving and forgiving. However, we need to temper our view of an all-together loving God by also being aware that He can and does judge sin, because of who He is. It is not separate from His love, it is inextricably linked to it. To create a God that is only ever accepting and loving without the need to for judgement is to create a God that does not exist in scripture.
I don't wish to discourage you from your search for Christ. You seem like someone who is seeking, but my advice to you is to find out who God truly is; the God of the Bible wishes to make Himself known to you and to have a relationship with you, but it's on HIS terms, not yours.