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Abby18
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I know I haven't been on here in a while, but I feel I just need to tell someone. I have been discouraged lately about my relationship with God. When everyone talks about Christ's coming, I'm terrified! I know there is something wrong there, so I've been praying, but I'm still so frightened. I've been baptized for several years now, but I don't feel like my life has changed as much as it needs to. Even as I realized this I am having a hard time dealing with feelings of depression and a painful loneliness that keeps me from doing anything at all. I never go out anymore, or do anything besides go on the internet and watch TV. I don't enjoy anything anymore, and life seems so empty now. I constantly worry and have become dull and apathetic. I worry about my future, suddenly it seems like I am frozen, unable to do anything, work, college or otherwise. How will I support myself? What if I'm alone forever? And I don't just mean I want a romantic relationship, but just to connect with another person would be nice. I feel like I have no one and it's Killing Me! I fear I will fall apart. I am praying for God to help me, but I just feel so insecure in our relationship, and very, very weak. I never feel good anymore, and some days I just don't know how I can go on. I know this is a lot of venting, but I really don't have anyone to talk to and its been bottled up inside me for years. I know I am not the only one struggling with this, but it sure feels like it. Thank you anyone who will listen.