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Two songs bring back hard memories. Both because it was in the first three months when I became born again.
This first one was because at the time I was just barely 16, had a just barely five-year-old brother, and we were both living with our aunt and uncle because Mom left Dad and moved back with her mom and us. But two weeks later we found out she had a kind of cancer that was going to kill her. That's when little brother and I moved in with her little brother. Didn't much know/care for Dad, so loved we were away from him, but very upset I was losing Mom. Add to that, I was Catholic and the godmother of little brother.
Being godmother meant it was up to me to raise him up right in the Catholic church if anything happened to Mom. So that was weighing a lot on my mind too. More so, since I became born again, thus having problems reconciling RCC with God. And more so, because not only was I not in love with Dad, we had moved out to IL only a year before Mom left him, so I had been uprooted twice in the two years I was going to high school. I always had friends by the end of the school year, but not the kind of friendships most people have in high school. The ones that started in first grade. At least, in Charlottesville,VA, (where we moved to when Mom moved out from Dad, and ha! I kept forgetting people have heard of Charlottesville now lol), I had lots of family around me. No one but Dad in IL.
Becoming born again, I met older believers. Some offered me a place to hide, if I didn't want to go back with Dad. I planned to take my 5-year-old brother with me, except for the obvious problem. If we're in hiding, that means no school, so what becomes of both of us?
All this while Mom got sicker and sicker.
And then this song became a big hit.
[video=youtube;Jl5vi9ir49g]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jl5vi9ir49g[/video]
This first one was because at the time I was just barely 16, had a just barely five-year-old brother, and we were both living with our aunt and uncle because Mom left Dad and moved back with her mom and us. But two weeks later we found out she had a kind of cancer that was going to kill her. That's when little brother and I moved in with her little brother. Didn't much know/care for Dad, so loved we were away from him, but very upset I was losing Mom. Add to that, I was Catholic and the godmother of little brother.
Being godmother meant it was up to me to raise him up right in the Catholic church if anything happened to Mom. So that was weighing a lot on my mind too. More so, since I became born again, thus having problems reconciling RCC with God. And more so, because not only was I not in love with Dad, we had moved out to IL only a year before Mom left him, so I had been uprooted twice in the two years I was going to high school. I always had friends by the end of the school year, but not the kind of friendships most people have in high school. The ones that started in first grade. At least, in Charlottesville,VA, (where we moved to when Mom moved out from Dad, and ha! I kept forgetting people have heard of Charlottesville now lol), I had lots of family around me. No one but Dad in IL.
Becoming born again, I met older believers. Some offered me a place to hide, if I didn't want to go back with Dad. I planned to take my 5-year-old brother with me, except for the obvious problem. If we're in hiding, that means no school, so what becomes of both of us?
All this while Mom got sicker and sicker.
And then this song became a big hit.
[video=youtube;Jl5vi9ir49g]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jl5vi9ir49g[/video]