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I used to fall in love with guys before I returned to God and I've repented it and since then whenever I feel attracted to men God makes a way to avoid me from falling.
While I was doing my devotional, God revealed that one of those guys I used to love will return, and indeed HE DID. Sadly he is a believer too, and the enemy is so desperate to bring my faith in God down he is using him in ways that aim to knock me off my knees.
Like one time while I was surfing my Facebook page I saw him comment on a photo of the girl he used to like. I got jealous and almost said the S word and wrote bad things-- but God said, DON'T. And that moment I cried and prayed and uncovered more burdens that I have not yet uncovered about the matter. So I told God that I cannot fight this on my own and I lift to him the burden of struggling with homosexuality and moving on.
Today, I was logging on Facebook and he commented on my status and I just shouted out LOOOORD! Cause I was so scared. I don't know what to do. From experience I know when he's online I just feel so weak and budge in. And yeah we did chat and I don't know. I just felt like "Okay, I'll chat with you because I cannot answer your comment. But there is nothing else to this"
Thank God it was dinner and I went down and when I came back he was offline. But the most remarkable thing is... it did not matter. I dunno why I feel bad. But as Romans 8:1 says, there is no condemnation. I fell to my own desires, but I know God is not condemning me the same way the enemy is. Instead, God is saying, "Stand up. Hold my hand. And you won't stumble again"...
While I was doing my devotional, God revealed that one of those guys I used to love will return, and indeed HE DID. Sadly he is a believer too, and the enemy is so desperate to bring my faith in God down he is using him in ways that aim to knock me off my knees.
Like one time while I was surfing my Facebook page I saw him comment on a photo of the girl he used to like. I got jealous and almost said the S word and wrote bad things-- but God said, DON'T. And that moment I cried and prayed and uncovered more burdens that I have not yet uncovered about the matter. So I told God that I cannot fight this on my own and I lift to him the burden of struggling with homosexuality and moving on.
Today, I was logging on Facebook and he commented on my status and I just shouted out LOOOORD! Cause I was so scared. I don't know what to do. From experience I know when he's online I just feel so weak and budge in. And yeah we did chat and I don't know. I just felt like "Okay, I'll chat with you because I cannot answer your comment. But there is nothing else to this"
Thank God it was dinner and I went down and when I came back he was offline. But the most remarkable thing is... it did not matter. I dunno why I feel bad. But as Romans 8:1 says, there is no condemnation. I fell to my own desires, but I know God is not condemning me the same way the enemy is. Instead, God is saying, "Stand up. Hold my hand. And you won't stumble again"...