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My wife left me about four weeks ago. Since then, I've been able to busy myself during the morning and day time. But when I'm home alone, I get the most soul shaking, painful case of loneliness. This pain is so intense I would not wish it on anyone. All I do is cry out and ask God to please return my wife to me. I am in a viscious cycle of feeling okay, feeling down, deep mourning, soul shattering crying and the process repeats itself all over again. I will never consider suicide, or do anything myself to hasten my own death, but I find myself asking the Lord to please take me home to be with him. I miss my wife... it is difficult to have someone for 25 years then have to make a severe life change. I am looking for physical Christian companionship in my area but am not finding any. I have God-he will never leave me, but he knows I need my wife back. I am giving up the will to go on.