Hi cec4me, Thank you for taking time to give me a good advice. I'm sorry about what happened to your family, I can only imagine what you're going through.I have no siblings so most of the time I feel alone and there's no one to talk to. Most people are too busy to care and it is different living in a third world country. Don't you worry, I won't run from God, I'll rest on God's grace. My relatioship with Jesus is the best gift I have ever received. May God continue to comfort you and give you strength when times are hard. Thank you very much.