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My mental health is really bad. I've just read proverbs about a reprobate mind. This is what I haveOpps I meng to say "How's your mental health in that regard too considering how anxious you are feeling about the welfare of your family?
My mental health is really bad. I've just read proverbs about a reprobate mind. This is what I have![]()
What you need is a new you. And that is exactly what God has done for us in Lord Jesus. God forgave a slave trader, a man who bought and sold people as if they were cattle. Many slaves died on his ships as the conditions were so bad. You might know a song he wrote. It's probably the best known hymn ever. It is "Amazing Grace".I had a lot of issues growing up with my mental health when I was a child. I had to put things in certain ways otherwise thoughts came into my head that something bad would happen to my family and it would be all my fault. I was detached at school and used to think what I had done to deserve the illness I had and I just couldn't seem to fit in.
I grew up a rebel of a teenager disrespecting my parents, drinking, taking drugs when clubbing, I also had 2 abortions when I was younger which I truly regret now.
I met a man in my mid 20's, he was nice at first, we got married then the abuse started. I wasn't easy to live with to be honest but he wasn't a very nice person. He was abusive. We had children and I was a great mother at first but the atmosphere in the house with my husband was awful. He didn't help that much with the children at all. There were domestic incidents with him. I found out one day when I was pregnant with my third child that the police had been looking for my ex husband for 10 years as he was accused of sexually abusing children. He convinced me that he didn't do it and I stuck by the monster for a while I just felt so low and controlled, he kept saying he would get the kids taken off me. How could I have done this how could I have stuck by him??? I did eventually leave him before his court case and luckily he was convicted. I was left with scars so emotionally deep from everything that I started drinking more and more and neglected the emotional needs of my children. I was drunk every night selfishly trying to block the pain out I was horrible and have scarred my amazing children in the process. They don't deserve a mother like me.
I then went on to meet an amazing man who took me, my problems and my children on. I was still drinking though, I couldn't face the person I was so I drowned myself in drink. I even drank when I was pregnant with my fourth child. I'm so so selfish. I got so drunk on occasion that I used to go out and cheated on my amazing partner. I had that much drink I didnt know what I was doing and the guilt after was immense, still is. I am so so evil for hurting my family like this. I remember when my lovely nanna was dying and myself and my mum and sister stayed with her with hardly any sleep for 7 days. I had evil thoughts about my nan on her deathbed with my thoughts calling her names. They were unwanted thoughts but I cannot forgive myself for this either. I get these unwanted thoughts a lot. I have got better over the years and started going to church. I promised God loads of times I wouldn't drink and kept on doing it just not as much even though I know it hurt my family. I've put alcohol and myself before God and my family and it's caused so much damage. I know God has given me loads of chances but ive let him down. I had a vision a few years ago telling me I would get ill like this ans I was going to hell
My doctors think I have motor neurone disease so I'm terminal and deteriorating fast. I feel like I deserve this death, I'm not worth it. Ive not lived in Gods ways and I cannot seem to accept Jesus' forgiveness no matter how hard I try, I just feel so worthless and defeated. I have stopped drinking now but I should have done this for God and my family way before. I should have done the right thing ages ago and now it's too late.
Now my family are going to suffer even more as they will grieve for me. I want to be a good person and I want Jesus' forgiveness. I'm just a horrible horrible person. I feel so bad after everything I've done. Please forgive me Lord![]()
Don’t diagnose yourself. Take a breath. Now ask yourself, “If my children screwed up really bad, would I not still love them? If they came to me broken hearted in despair at their action, would I not forgive them?” Here’s the deal: kids screw up. Adults screw up. What’s done is done. You can’t change the past but you can control what you’re doing right now. God knows we are flawed. That’s why He threw us a lifeline. We can’t save ourselves but in Him we can be transformed. Focus on this minute. Focus on who you are not who you were. Enjoy the journey.My mental health is really bad. I've just read proverbs about a reprobate mind. This is what I have![]()
I am so glad you came, dear sister. We shall seek a closer walk with Jesus together. Don't give up. We will understand why bad times come someday. For now, lest just keep trusting Him. Love and blessings.I'm so lost right now
Lots of very good people in the Bible started out doing terrible things. All Jesus cares about is that we finish well. As long as we humble ourselves and ask Him to pick us up again, He will be there for us. We won't be perfect until we get to Heaven. All Jesus cares about is our "want to". Let His Blood take care of the rest. Bless you.I've done so many terrible things
All of us do. We all fall short of the Glory. For most, the problem is pride. They refuse to acknowledge their unworthiness like you do.I feel like I deserve this death
All of us must face this fact. You have already made the first and greatest step. Satan is fighting hard for you because He knows you are special in the eyes of Jesus. Jesus' eyes are the only ones that matter.I'm not worth it. Ive not lived in Gods ways
...but God knows. Only He can deliver us and heal and cleanse our sick and filthy souls. Jesus knows we can not come up to Him. That is why He came down to us. Do you want to surrender everything to Him? Go ahead. You are the one He has been waiting for. You are the one He died for.My doctors think
Hi Lost (and now found) welcome to the fellowship here at CCMy mental health is really bad. I've just read proverbs about a reprobate mind. This is what I have![]()
Lovely post, thankyou for the encourement, the mind is such a fragile part of our body at times. mental health issues are so common, it so sad that people would fear that God would cause that, all i can do is pray. it breaks my heart to listening to people worried that God is punishing them,Hi Lost (and now found) welcome to the fellowship here at CCIf you have accepted Jesus, remember this Scripture 'there is now no condemnation (passing judgment) to those in Christ Jesus'. We are all dealing with our carnality every day and the only way to combat it is to know what God says about us. Remember Paul had a battle about doing the things he didn't want to do and not doing the things he did want to do.. I think we all face similar challenges but what's so great is that our Father God is 'for us and not against us'. God bless you and your family!
Lovely post, thankyou for the encourement, the mind is such a fragile part of our body at times. mental health issues are so common, it so sad that people would fear that God would cause that, all i can do is pray. it breaks my heart to listening to people worried that God is punishing them,
None of us are worthy of the love God bestows on us; acknowledging that is the basis of humility.I'm panicking all of the time, I feel so unworthy
honestly you have to realise that God would not keep reminding you of wrong choices you made. You really have to realise this. the spiritual enemy (bad cheribum denomic spirits) on the other hand would and at same time make you feal like its coming from God.I don't think god is punishing me I just feel like I deserve this for the life choices I've made. It's my fault not Gods. I trust him. I'm just finding it hard to accept what's happening and so are my children