Hey there, I think most of us can relate, I felt hopelessly attached to my sinful ways, until i noticed things finally beginning to change in that I was being set free, and the shackles began to simply fall off my wrists and ankles. You too will experience this once you come close enough to God, He will do this for you, and it's not what the world thinks of us that will matter any longer, since we are not of this world, and the world hates us because it hated Christ, whom we stand for. The thing is there's really nothing happy go lucky about the lifestyle of a Christian, other than our future freely given heavenly reward by salvation. We will face persecution and we will face various trials and tribulations. We find peace in knowing the promise which is only drawing nearer each day to us. I hope this helps and doesn't lead you to be a fair weathered Christian, who turn away from the faith after that the going gets tough. Hang in there for now is the Lord closer than ever before, and we will soon be caught up with Him in the clouds, minister to the lost, to those that will hear and listen. Be of good cheer and great faith, continue in the progress of the Christian lifestyle. God be with and for you. Amen.