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SolR90
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I know i matter to Christ, he is a good friend and father, a great teacher and the best comfort a person could ever get. Im married though, and my husband calls me and spends time with me, but only because i force hime to. I yell and have arguments and when i finally let things go, and don't force him to do things, he spends no time with me, doesnt call me, and leaves me home at nights to go do other things. I don't nag and i just sit there and be happy, but he still never "out of choice" calls me or spends time with me. I have no friends who wants me or trys to hang out with me, and when i try i usually get shut down or no replies. It makes me hate myself and who i am, i wonder all the time "what is so wrong with me". i try to explain to my husband that i constantly feel like i am a "nobody" and that no-one really cares for me or being with me. He tells me "Oh shut up" "U matter to me ok now shut up" then he ignores me for a long time. I always have to argue with him to give me a phone call or to take me on a date or to spend time alone with me. He doesnt want a divorce or for us to seperate but he never wants me either. I just, i just don't know. The main reason i am on this site is because, people on here are really the only people i talk to in my life. Strangers who actually take time out for me. It makes me feel better.