I need a break through. I have faith. I've been a christian since I was 15. I'm now 31. I KNOW God can give people freedom, I know HE want's me free. I've seen Him set people free 
I find myself in the middle of something profound for myself though. I'm battling what i've been told is "symptoms of PTSD." This is a result of things that happened so long ago in my life I don't even know how they could still have power over me. How do you fight something though that is having an effect on your body/mind that are instinctual rather than conscious. I feel out of control sometimes. I'm not a danger to myself or others, it's not effecting my work life, or my ability to connect at least on some level with others, but I fear that it will effect my ability to connect in deep meaningful ways or ever really be as vulnerable with someone as you should be if you are looking at engaging in a serious relationship with them. Obviously whoever God has for me will like me for me but I think I want to not pour out things on my friends and family that are not theirs to bear.
I know God is good, and I will not say else-wise. I would just like a tangible resolution, and I am desperate at this point for God do something.
I find myself in the middle of something profound for myself though. I'm battling what i've been told is "symptoms of PTSD." This is a result of things that happened so long ago in my life I don't even know how they could still have power over me. How do you fight something though that is having an effect on your body/mind that are instinctual rather than conscious. I feel out of control sometimes. I'm not a danger to myself or others, it's not effecting my work life, or my ability to connect at least on some level with others, but I fear that it will effect my ability to connect in deep meaningful ways or ever really be as vulnerable with someone as you should be if you are looking at engaging in a serious relationship with them. Obviously whoever God has for me will like me for me but I think I want to not pour out things on my friends and family that are not theirs to bear.
I know God is good, and I will not say else-wise. I would just like a tangible resolution, and I am desperate at this point for God do something.