grrrrrrrrrr.

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I know that I have been irritable lately, not entirely sure why, according to my counselor, there could be many reasons, like the fact that i haven't given in since jan. and i am not releasing my stress, or the fact that what memories i do have of the abuse all are in the spring or summer, so on and so on... but i just feel so grrrrrrrr. the other day , i overheard some folks critizing those of us who are addicted to porn. i wanted to scream at them. i did email someone who also heard the conversation. and it was encouraging but i still am grrrrrrr, aggitated. i also was n a conversation where other things were said, and i had to keep my mouth shut... I just wanted to scream, sometimes i want to have the same desire as them to punish those who abuse but knowing that God has changed my Dad , and i am called to love him, i couldn't ever see hurting him...so i get really twisted up inside, sometimes i just want to scream, and whatnot... wiith all this, i hadn't thought about giving in to suicide since jan. and monday, i actually did, I had the desire, i don't like when i get so twisted up inside andi just wanted it all to stop. fortunately i was able to talk myself out of it... actually i would assume God had more to do with it. I still feel very drained this week. I have been trying to just let God have it all, yet i still have this need to just be held, hugged. to be shown love. ok,, I think i said enough
 
I Praise Jesus that you resisted the temptation to end your life. You are so important to Him and to us. I don't know your whole story but know that, with Jesus, all things are possible.
Just get up and thank Jesus that you're going to feel His Joy today and everyday. I have to do this myself. it's a choice. Study the Word and know that Jesus Loves you so much. Please hang in there like a hair in a biscuit (a southern saying :D) I will be praying for you sister shadow.......
 
I'm huge on wanting to be held. I think I once called a few people I know because I NEEDED A HUG. One of this over the top, consoling , deep, warm, just..sqeeze the life out of you hugs. I still want it these days but I'm slowly very slowly letting God be the one that hugs me, consoles me, brace me, put me to sleep, wake me up, kiss my cheek... I guess I'm just saying you are not alone. But I just know God has a plan for us. He does. You just gotta hold on, have faith, read read read read that bible verse, talk to someone who shares your faith, have that godly friend on speed dial. I'm telling you .. I feel so broken but something about knowing God has a master plan that I know it's almost here...That makes me feel better and gives me hope.

( writing about it also does) You...your life ... it's worth a lot! .. He won the war!!
 
Thanks Deb, I love the hair in a biscuit saying... made me laugh...Toffle, can I ask how you allow God to console you... I understand and yet I don't ... how can God hug you? and Thank you also....
 
John 14:26 But the Comforter, [FONT=Trebuchet, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif]which is[/FONT][FONT=Trebuchet, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif] the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.. [/FONT]

God has a peace..like no other ..and the holy spirit is like a huge big warm blanket. I felt it once in a powerful way when I felt dead a few years ago. I mean I called friends .and they were all busy, or did not answer their phones.. I way laying in a pool of my own tears I couldn't even breath... that week... man I went to church .. closed my eyes.. praised and raised my hands... bent my knees ... I was crying so loud and praying to God for forgiveness and healing and after that It was like... he pulled a huge pack of mud from the depth of my soul and a weight was lifted from me. His peace..is none like this world. These days I've fallen short ..And I pray for that same peace again. Just know that it's real and its here...just pray endlessly for it.
 
i'm single and i don't have someone to hold me or to hug me except my parents and some friends.. and sometimes, especially when i'm alone and sad i feel inside that i need someone to hold me, to comforts me, to hug me... and yet even i read the Word of God and meditate it i felt relief but i still feel that i'm alone and sad...
 
Believe me Didin1988 this evening I felt like you did too. I'm super broken right now .. but I can try to find happiness in something wordly and I know I will still feel empty and lonely (I've done it many times). Or I can continue to truck on and have faith that God can fill my empty spaces. It's so hard but I mean gosh I just know there is a rainbow at the end of this storm .. There has to be. Ive tried the alternative ....and it's nothing.
 
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that's right Toffle.. I did the alternative as well and made me worst.. this is not the first time i felt this way.. but i think i'm loosing hope.. Until when? i mean I keep believing that God would see me as he saw Adan alone and needed someone to be his partner.. but as of now i'm loosing hope.. when? i've waited for a long time.. and as i wait its tiring also..
 
You have faith. Everyone around me is getting married and having kids I too get discouraged but ..I refuse to settle for anything less than God sent. We just have to pray like Abraham's servant did.

Read the story of Abraham's servant who was sent to fetch a bride for his son. He prayed for a proper match and God answered his prayer. Rebekah. ( Genesis 24: 10-14)

We just gotta truck on and have faith and keep praying. In the mean time .. focus on doing everything for the Lord and keeping your eyes on him.
 
amen.. thank God.. i guess that's the best thing i can do for now.. keep on trusting Him.. just keep the faith and do all things with thanksgiving... Oh God!!
 
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