heartbroken

[keke448]

Ok guys my ex bf of four yrs who i use to live with has broken up with me so fsr its been a yr since the breakup n ever since then he has always been at my apt spending time with me i cook for him n we do things as if we were together i asked does he see us together again n he says he doesnt think it will work in the past we did argue but the problems we had were tiny so now he is in the process of buying a big homr n ut breaks my heart because i wish it was also mine n we can build a family there instead he wants to live alone i took care of him n did everything catered to his needs and all n never cheated i was so good to him he also asked if i would decorate it for him and i just broke down because i dont wanna help him when im stuck in an apt in a state where i have no family cause i took a risk n changed my life for him he still comes here everyday and doesnt understand how much it hurts all he says is sorry i understand its so hard for me to shut him out of my life cause i love him so much he told me to stay in the statr in my apt n not move back home but i feel like if i stay i would just be here waiting for him and who knows he might end up meeting someome n giving them everything he never gave men i will sit here n rot