30 years in a back slidden state is a long time. here's the truth: depending on the severity of a sinful life you possibly led, you may not have been born again "for real" in the 1st place. being born again, always, is a 1 time deal. back sliding for a short while while still holding fast the profession of your faith & trust in Jesus, can occur but you never lose your salvation. only you know if you were truly born again 30 years ago. study these verses: Hebrews 11:6, John 3:5, 4:24, 1st John 5:10, 13, Romans 8:16, 10:9. a born again Christian is known by his or her action, more than words. when Christians sin, immediately, they will recognize the Holy Spirit's conviction or their own conviction & act on it then & correct it. if someone says he or she is born again & is committing WILLFUL sin, that's the all-tell sign that said person IS NOT born again. UNREPENTANT SIN IS NEVER PART OF A CHRISTIAN'S LIFE. the correction of sin in a born again person's life is always on top of the list. blessings to you.