So what was with the music? I sat down and read a book called, 'The Joy of Saying No, stop being a people pleaser.' In this book I found out that I am a gooder, avoider, and suffering. My relationship with God, was suffering. I kept hurting myself, more and more and worse and worse, because I wanted God to say and do things for me. God had already told me about it, and, you can't tempt God. I decided to not hurt myself anymore, and have been feeling better now. I hurt myself so bad, that, I am sore from it. The music, helps me drive the pain deeper. And for that, extol is really better than metallica.