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Sam1212
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I dont even know how to begin. I guess i should say how i feel. Im tires of living in this desert. Not being able to feel him. Nor his presence, or nothing good or bad. I have tried being a good guy, i have tried being bad, i have tried not looking for him, i have tried looking hard for him, i have tried surrendering completly, i have tried fighting it, i have tried helping others, ignoring them, i have tried on and of the books ways, i have tried easy and hard. I just dont know what to do anymore. Does he hates me? Does he want me with him or away? Does he keeps close to some and away from others. Is there a way to win him back? It sucks having all this knowledge and still wont be able to feel what does he wants me for. Or if he even wants me at all.