Hi Steph, First, I want to tell you that I am a suicide survivor. Forget the details.........what is important to let you know is without God, many of us would not be here today. God does not "keep" us in one spot........He keeps us safe as we step out in faith, knowing He will never leave us or forsake us, no matter what. Allow God to take charge of your WHOLE life. Pray constantly for His guidance and listen carefully for His voice. Satan wants us to turn away from God, and is when we are at our weakest point that he tries to step in with all sorts of temptation. If he convinces you to take your life, he gains your soul and control of your children. He has much to gain from your failure................It's time to put on the "armor" and do battle. Step out in faith, knowing God will protect you and guide you to a higher place. Be strong for those two babies, knowing you are the most important chance they have at succeeding in life. You know you must leave the place you are living at now. Don't ask "where will I go ?". Ask God to show you.......then start looking.......you'll see. Father in Heaven, we humbly pray for our, Steph, who needs Your loving hand to lift her up and guide her to higher ground. We pray for her safety and the safety of her two precious babies as she seeks to better her life. Bless her abundantly, Lord, with the strength she needs to gain a better life and a closer walk with You. We ask these things in the name of our Savior, who is Christ our Lord......AMEN.................................you may message me if you need to.....