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Mrcymstr
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I'm being a terrible light to the world right now. I'm being very quick to anger with my family over things I've never cared about before (money and physical stuff like that). I feel like it all boils down to the fact I have so many things in my way stopping me from going after the one thing in the world I want... a wife. Yes I'm a 20 year old but all I want is to find a woman to enter into a covenant relationship with and start a family. However I can't go to college for a couple reasons (high-school states that I don't have a diploma even though I was an A B student) and I still haven't got any form of transportation or even a drivers license (because I live in a rural area this is a major issue). Ok so now you've got the basics I need some mentoring or something. I understand I am a filthy sinner and don't deserve to feel like I'm not getting what I deserve because if I did I'd get hell. Why do I still feel like this I feel like on one hand I'm saying Christ isn't sufficient for joy which I know is blatantly false. On the other hand I sometimes feel I'm not getting what I am owed because of what I've done for my mom after my father left and that I'm not asking for anything outlandish. I'm looking for spiritual help here even though I know this all seems so petty compared to the forgiveness of my sins I've been graced with by God.