Dear Christians,I thank you all for your loving responses to my problem. I still feel condemned and no matter what I pray I know that God has made me for destruction. It is a horrible feeling to know that the Creator of the universe does not love you and does not care about you. I feel that my life is over and there is nothing I can do to change that. I plead with God but He does not hear me. I had many hopes and dreams for my life and they have all been all trashed. I cannot teach, I will never get married or have children, and worst of all I am going to Hell. I see God as a monster, an ogre and I cannot understand why this punishment is upon me. Most of my friends( both Christians and non-Christians) are living full active, and productive lives. I am here at home waiting to die. It is a horrible feeling and I cannot forgive God for putting me in this position. I feel like a piece of worthless junk. I feel so depressed that I cannot even cry at times. I have been to doctors ,taken meds, gone to counseling and nothing works.It is not fair.If God is truly love, I do not see it.I truly feel hopeless. AS always, jeaniebeanie
Jenie, I want to witness to how you can get past seeing the failier, and know the love of Jesus.
Jesus said, that we must set aside ourself if we want to know him.
Jesus also said I am the vine, you are the branch.
Too often we keep looking at the branch (ourself) to see the things we think should be (the fruit).
If we do not see fruit, we convince ourselves of failier.
We are not to look at our branch, but at Jesus always (the vine) because it is when we keep our eyes on Jesus, trusting everything, that the fruit will grow.
I had to learn this and I know it seems crazy to do so, but just try this.
Praise Jesus, in Him God Our Father for everything, and I mean everything good and bad in your life.
Praising Jesus is more than saying its good, it is putting in Jesus, Gods great love and power in your life.
When you praise God for everything, it takes satans controll away compleatly, and gives all to God Our Father's love for you! Just keep praising untill you see His love and power.
I know you want to say forget it, but do not, praise God Our Father in Jesus.
This gives all of God's power and great love into your life.
What have you got to lose by trying?
You can only gain in Jesus.
MY heart and prayers continue to be with you in Jesus.
God bless, pickles