Don't give up, God did not make you for a miserable a life, He created you to be a vessel for him? so whats going on in your life making you feel this? I know how you feel I can sympathize with you I am in crazy pain and sometimes its easy to give into that lie thats why God made us, but its not! psalm 139 states he knows every hair he created on your head hes counted them that you are fearfully and wonderfully made he knitted you in your mothers womb!and you know who felt the same way cause he went through a lot , Job! in the bible he asked the same thing from the lord he said curse the day I was born let me die.... God didn't but he did pull him through, you are young. God has many plans for you just pull up those lies and start filling it with the word of God with is truth! The bible states Satan is the master of lies , his native language is lies all he knows to do is lie! and hes got you wrapped up in them!! I am here I am praying for you! You need to combat the lies of I am worthless with I am a chosen child of the Lord I have so much worth because of him he will reveal it it to me, my worth is to shine his light wherever I go. Godbless you also... why the almost heart attack?