I know that Jesus is here with me every second of my life. I mean that I can't take being the only one in my family who....... How can I put this? It's like whatever Jesus does for me... like the times he healed me seconds after I prayed, I don't truly think my family believes me. I'm very different from my family. I am 20 years old and I'm just not interested in drinking, drugs, partying, dressing very inappropriate, dating. I am very different and I don't really know why but I love it and I just wish I had people in my life like me. And it's not only things about Jesus it's also just random things. I never have anyone on my side no matter what the situation is and I'm fed up. Who can I talk to?? Someone who wants to talk about all the great things Jesus has done and is still doing for us. Someone who wants to praise dance with me. Omg.... I would absolutely love that!! I know I probably seem much younger for my age but that's just me. I really want someone I can chat with almost every single day. I want to talk about Jesus to someone for hours. I love him very much! I'm afraid that when I turn 21 in May, my sisters are going to try and change me. They already want to give me makeover. Put weave in my hair, give me fake eyelashes, different clothes, fake nails and makeup. That's too much. I have my own hair, nails and lashes. My oldest who's 24 wants me to hangout at the bar for my birthday and it's just not going to happen. It's always hard for me to say no but they aren't going to peer pressure me about things I'm not comfortable doing anymore. I love wearing jeans and a shirt, sandals, listening to gospel music, praise dancing. They are all the opposite. I'm not trying to change them so they need to stop trying to change me. I want to find someone like me!!