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I don't feel ready to engage in conversation about this sin problem, on this website, yet. The reason is, I have engaged in this conversation before, on other places. Every time, those conversations don't help me. Sometimes only God can help me. For those reasons, I'm going to keep this a little vague for now.
I think the reason why I don't feel close to God is because there is mental sin in my life. It's sorta confessed and sorta not confessed. As far as God knowing about it, He knows! I've told him many many times. There are people on the internet, who knew. There are even people in real life that sorta know. I even tried to talk about it with my Dad, and I couldn't quite get the conversation to go where I wanted it to go. I even tried buying a book about it, and then tried to get my Dad to read it. I thought then we could have a man to man conversation about it. He took one look at the book and said, this isn't going to help you, just do the best you can. My point is, I want my struggles to be out in the open. Because without having things in the open, your probably not going to find peace. Perhaps God has a reason for these road blocks. Recently I came across another book on the subject, and this one is criticizing the other one! It is making some really good points.
I want you to pray that God will make a way for me to deal with my sin. Maybe help me to confess it, in such a way, that I end up getting real life help, and finally getting peace. It isn't that I haven't tried. It's just that every time I run into road blocks.
I think the reason why I don't feel close to God is because there is mental sin in my life. It's sorta confessed and sorta not confessed. As far as God knowing about it, He knows! I've told him many many times. There are people on the internet, who knew. There are even people in real life that sorta know. I even tried to talk about it with my Dad, and I couldn't quite get the conversation to go where I wanted it to go. I even tried buying a book about it, and then tried to get my Dad to read it. I thought then we could have a man to man conversation about it. He took one look at the book and said, this isn't going to help you, just do the best you can. My point is, I want my struggles to be out in the open. Because without having things in the open, your probably not going to find peace. Perhaps God has a reason for these road blocks. Recently I came across another book on the subject, and this one is criticizing the other one! It is making some really good points.
I want you to pray that God will make a way for me to deal with my sin. Maybe help me to confess it, in such a way, that I end up getting real life help, and finally getting peace. It isn't that I haven't tried. It's just that every time I run into road blocks.
