I failed to believe God

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I failed God, I failed him so hard, I kept believing evil things were going to happen to me, I kept believing I would lose my way, I kept believing I was the antichrist, I kept believing I was a vessel of wrath, I kept believing that I was going to lose my family and everything, I kept believing God would take my life and send me to Hell, I kept believing that God and now I am hitting rock botton and falling. I hate it, I read Job and was afraid, I failed to believe the promises God told me and that his Spirit told me, I kept failing, I have failed God. What do I do? I feel unforgiveable and lost, and like I am unredeemable and self-condemned, I tried to repent and tried my best to become a godly person and to live sinfree and to live good, but nothing has worked. I am so desperate, help!~ I bear bad fruit, I am trapped in a vicious cycle of torment by the devil, and I am decieved by Satan, I am deluded and all sorts of things, someone help me. I keep making the same mistakes over and over, I am afraid of backsliding and ruining my salvation and my life and it has literally consumed me and I want to be saved I want to be saved I want to be saved why.
I have been trapped by the idea that people are condemned, I wish it wasn't so, I wish we all went to heaven, I am so sad that there is a hell, I wish there would be no more evil.
 
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I am always afraid that I will mess up the calling of God, that I will mess up my mission, that I will mess up.
 
I am always afraid that I will mess up the calling of God, that I will mess up my mission, that I will mess up. The delusions and the fears and the visions I have recieved fuel my fears, its like I am being told over and over you are condemned, you are evil, but at the same time, there are the voices of God that tell me I am saved I am saved, I feel so scared, like God can condemn anyone and what about Judas, what about all the people who were believers and died, what about the predestination of the vessels of wrath?
 
I just want to be good, I just want to live prosperously, I have suffered and seen hurt and pain and I want out.
 
I wish I could choose to be good and choose to be righteous, but it feels like I have no choice, I have no choice.
 
I fear punishment, I fear the wrath of God. I am sorry to everyone I hurt, I failed you all.
 
Take some deep breaths, drink a little water, try to relax and collect your thoughts.

Jesus paid our ransom to free us from sin, death, and hell. So, anytime you don't feel "worthy", just remember, God actually desires a relationship with us.

Also, God is in the restoration business.

Psalm 51:12
Restore to me the joy of Your salvation
And sustain me with a willing spirit
 
Fubario, I promised you that I would not stop praying and I have not broken that promise. I pray for you every single day and night. Let me ask you something, dear. How mighty do you believe God to be? Can you believe that He is so mighty that you can't change His mind about how much He loves you? Can you believe that God is so mighty that nothing you or anyone can say or do will make Him turn away from you? God is so mighty and powerful that even if you have no faith at all, He will remain faithful to you because that is who He is - FAITHFUL LORD. He will NEVER condemn you, NEVER send you to hell, NEVER stop loving you and NEVER let go of you.

Fubario, you are God's beloved child forever!

Even when we fail God, He will never fail us. Because HE IS GOD! Dear young man, I want you to call someone on the phone right now and tell them what you're going through. God is with you and will help you, ok? And I am praying for you, my son is praying for you, and your brothers and sisters on this site are praying for you. More than that, we BELIEVE for you that you will get through this. You are not alone.

Here is the hotline I gave you before. Call someone right now and let them help you. I care about you and don't want anything to happen to you.

Canada Suicide Hotlines - Suicide.org! Canada Suicide Hotlines, Canada Suicide Hotlines, Canada Suicide Hotlines, Canada Suicide Hotlines!
 
Fubario said:
I failed God, I failed him so hard, I kept believing evil things were going to happen to me, I kept believing I would lose my way, I kept believing I was the antichrist, I kept believing I was a vessel of wrath, I kept believing that I was going to lose my family and everything, I kept believing God would take my life and send me to Hell, I kept believing that God and now I am hitting rock botton and falling. I hate it, I read Job and was afraid, I failed to believe the promises God told me and that his Spirit told me, I kept failing, I have failed God. What do I do? I feel unforgiveable and lost, and like I am unredeemable and self-condemned, I tried to repent and tried my best to become a godly person and to live sinfree and to live good, but nothing has worked. I am so desperate, help!~ I bear bad fruit, I am trapped in a vicious cycle of torment by the devil, and I am decieved by Satan, I am deluded and all sorts of things, someone help me. I keep making the same mistakes over and over, I am afraid of backsliding and ruining my salvation and my life and it has literally consumed me and I want to be saved I want to be saved I want to be saved why.
I have been trapped by the idea that people are condemned, I wish it wasn't so, I wish we all went to heaven, I am so sad that there is a hell, I wish there would be no more evil.
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You need deliverence. Get those devils cast out of your life!! Jesus came to set the captives free. Walk with God in perfect fellowship with faithfulness! You can do it!
 
What's the last line of my signature say?

You are, too. But being so does you no good, at all, if you decide not to believe it.
 
I also had visions and dreams and kept fearing I was the antichrist and I am being tormented by fear.
 
Hello Fubario, Are you taking antidepressants? If so, is your physician monitoring you? Most people who take antidepressants have to have them adjusted to find the right prescription and the correct dosage. Might that be your problem, dear? Have you spoken to a doctor recently about the trouble you're having with horrid visions and nightmares?
 
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