I feel like demons are part of me... I can't escape them... I try but they are strong... I don't know what to do....
I am so scared... I know I have posted things like this before, But its a weird cycle... I will go days were I feel close to God and I will stop doing Godly things after a while and before you know it BAM! These demon's are back... They consume me, and the consume my subconscious... I need advice please...... PLEASE!
I am scared... These thoughts scare me beyond anything I have known... And with the thoughts come the weirdest feeling, Like I am becoming separated from this world... Like I am being drawn away.... These thoughts also have me talking to myself, Finding ways to convince myself that I am God, That I am Evil, That I am Everything, That nothing exists... I am scared of knowledge... I used to hunt for knowledge but now I am scared for my life because with every piece of knowledge comes a conspiracy theory if you will...
My mind is creating my own torment... PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I TALK TO PSYCHOLOGISTS AND THEY DO NOTHING BUT HAVE ME SCALE MY FEELINGS ON A SCALE OF 1-10... PLEASE!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I cant ask enough..... I am scared.... I am scared....
I hate these thoughts but they don't stop.............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
I try to force myself to be happy but it doesn't work... Nothing is working!
I am so scared... I know I have posted things like this before, But its a weird cycle... I will go days were I feel close to God and I will stop doing Godly things after a while and before you know it BAM! These demon's are back... They consume me, and the consume my subconscious... I need advice please...... PLEASE!
I am scared... These thoughts scare me beyond anything I have known... And with the thoughts come the weirdest feeling, Like I am becoming separated from this world... Like I am being drawn away.... These thoughts also have me talking to myself, Finding ways to convince myself that I am God, That I am Evil, That I am Everything, That nothing exists... I am scared of knowledge... I used to hunt for knowledge but now I am scared for my life because with every piece of knowledge comes a conspiracy theory if you will...
My mind is creating my own torment... PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I TALK TO PSYCHOLOGISTS AND THEY DO NOTHING BUT HAVE ME SCALE MY FEELINGS ON A SCALE OF 1-10... PLEASE!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I cant ask enough..... I am scared.... I am scared....
I hate these thoughts but they don't stop.............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
I try to force myself to be happy but it doesn't work... Nothing is working!