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"for only those who live for Christ can enter into His kingdom, the rest will suffer in the firey abyss and be tormented by satan and his demons for eternity. I would not wish this on my worst enemy" ...but he LOVES you! lol. That really sounds like what a loving parent would do, no? Our heavenly Father won't just punish us...it's severe torture for all eternity...simply for disagreeing with him. That's not sadistic and fascist at all.... You are not considered a child of God unless the HOLY Spirit testifies you as such. otherwise you are just flesh and not reborn of spirit or have a NEW Heart that cares as is evidenced in the rest of your words. You are a wonderful example of an intelligent worldly unawaken young woman who is quite happy with her heart of stone and unbelief. Having said that I think we should pray for you still.
However why are you on this site?
I have not researched this "Devay Satanism" you have mentioned, but no it does not sound like mindless devil worship but more about power and control and rebellion against authority.
Now, you might very well be right. When I grow old, I may very well turn to Christianity. But it's explainable scienficially and psychologically. And it would only be Christianity because it was the first thing I have come to know. Had I been raised some other religion, that may be what I return at an old age, if anything. This isnt God working on you. It's just common sense. You get old and you start fearing death.
I don't worship God because I fear death and neither was I much older then you are now when I converted from Buddhism to Christianity.
And "fear" and scare tactics, something I have studied and spoken about with great detail on here, is something very common to Christianity as well as all relgion. that is not true Christianity. God does give the spirit of FEAR but of Love, Power and a sound mind.
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