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Abby18
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I'm too tired to write the whole story, besides I've told it before. I haven't been on here in forever, but I have no one to talk to tonight. I'm depressed, lonely and can't see past the weekend in terms of going back to college. I'm alone, and no one cares how I am or what I feel. My life gets a little darker everyday and its wearing me down. There is such a big empty space where my life should be, where love should be, but there isn't any. If I had the kind of relationship with God that I'm supposed to have I wouldn't be in this place right now. I don't want to die, but other choice is there? My life is gone already. There is nothing for me to do, life doesn't ever get any better, it only gets worse from here. I hate being me. Sorry if this sounds pathetic because it is. I'm just so tired of not being able to measure up. No matter what, I don't think I can make it without someone to just CARE ALREADY! Is it too much to ask to be loved? What's wrong with me? I can't feel Jesus' love from way down here. I just want to be loved.