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It is hard to have faith anymore in myself. I'm just keeping my faith in God and that he will send me a message about having to do whats right.
I dropped out of high school my sophmore year because of being bullied physically and emotionally to the point of not wanting to go to school anymore. My parents went up to the principal 3 times complaining about it, but they didn't do a thing. So, I dropped out of public school once the year was over. After that, I went into a public online school hoping that would work. There were a lot of pros to it. I got to do school work in my pajamas and I didn't have to put up with being bullied everyday. There were a lot of cons to it though. I was really depressed because the school work took up my whole day everyday. I hardly ever got to even go outside so I was cased in most of the day, and I didn't get help with subjects such as math.
There were online tutoring lessons for math each week and I went to most of them. I didn't get help though with math that much which left me behind in school work. I tried to catch up as much as I can, but was still behind. I was so behind by the end of the school year that I flunked the tenth grade. I was so disappointed with myself with the fact that I flunked. I dropped out of the online public school, and am set to go get my GED now. I want to go get my GED, but I feel a lot of social anxiety going into a brand new classroom with a lot of people that are all of different age groups. So, I've been holding off on getting my GED on purpose.
I have been moving forward with a lot of other things such as studying for my driver's license and am not as depressed as I was before. One thing is missing though that I really need and that is my GED. I don't know what I should do though. Get help for my social anxiety or go take a leap forward and just go to the prep class to get my GED. I've been living with a lot of guilt though. I feel like I'm such a failure to my parents and even to God. Do you think God is disappointed in me because I dropped out? I don't know. It might sound silly since I know God loves me, but I feel like He's disappointed in my choices of dropping out. I just need a message desperately on what to do.
I don't know if this is the right place to post this, but I feel like I can tell my brothers and sisters with Christ this without being judged.
Thank you.
I dropped out of high school my sophmore year because of being bullied physically and emotionally to the point of not wanting to go to school anymore. My parents went up to the principal 3 times complaining about it, but they didn't do a thing. So, I dropped out of public school once the year was over. After that, I went into a public online school hoping that would work. There were a lot of pros to it. I got to do school work in my pajamas and I didn't have to put up with being bullied everyday. There were a lot of cons to it though. I was really depressed because the school work took up my whole day everyday. I hardly ever got to even go outside so I was cased in most of the day, and I didn't get help with subjects such as math.
There were online tutoring lessons for math each week and I went to most of them. I didn't get help though with math that much which left me behind in school work. I tried to catch up as much as I can, but was still behind. I was so behind by the end of the school year that I flunked the tenth grade. I was so disappointed with myself with the fact that I flunked. I dropped out of the online public school, and am set to go get my GED now. I want to go get my GED, but I feel a lot of social anxiety going into a brand new classroom with a lot of people that are all of different age groups. So, I've been holding off on getting my GED on purpose.
I have been moving forward with a lot of other things such as studying for my driver's license and am not as depressed as I was before. One thing is missing though that I really need and that is my GED. I don't know what I should do though. Get help for my social anxiety or go take a leap forward and just go to the prep class to get my GED. I've been living with a lot of guilt though. I feel like I'm such a failure to my parents and even to God. Do you think God is disappointed in me because I dropped out? I don't know. It might sound silly since I know God loves me, but I feel like He's disappointed in my choices of dropping out. I just need a message desperately on what to do.
I don't know if this is the right place to post this, but I feel like I can tell my brothers and sisters with Christ this without being judged.
Thank you.