So here is the ddeal for the past two or three years I had been living in my own apartment but my health got bad and I had no support from my family they basically just let my health keep geetting worseee even though I told them my health isn't a joke and told them what would happen if we didn't take care of it. I am disabledd andd legally blind my body has issues from the cancer I had as a kid permanent health issues andddd I can ddo most things on my own but I need a little help and support to function on my own
weell aside from my health I was literally starving to death unable to afford much food and on top of that my room mate was stealing money from me eating all kinds of junk food andd fast food while I was becoming skin and bones I had to call the er several times just so I could get fluids andd some food in me "I could barely move or walk from low energy and with my health and starving I almost died
A case manager from the er took action because she had met with me several times in the er and was furious at my family for letting me get to that point she sent me to a nursing home and I finally got to eat and get my medications and my health was getting better my body got some wight and my energy came back but while that is all well and gooddd this place is a prison you cannot even go outside or do anything outside the building the people in charge do not casre about the people here they just want the money they get from having people live here every day I struggle with my mental state being locked up in this building every day being like the day before dealing with constant depression sleeping a lot not eating andd wondering if God is punishing me
I have tried every which way to be able to get out andd live my life but every which way I try it doesn't work out. I was denied assistant living and most nursing homes here in oklahoma I don't qualify for and there is no one willing to take me in and help me get back on my feet so I am stuck here
I am trying to just accept the situation and trust God but my hope is dried out I am just sad and feeling trapped and I would do anything to just be able to have my apartment again but this time have the right support so my health doesn't get worse again but there seems to be no path in sight for me and I fear I will be stuck here for the rest of my life.
I am even starting to get suicidal thoughts I am a free spirit I can't be caged or in prisoned or else my mental state gets really bad. and honestly I tried to be strong I tried my best to follow the path God wanted but because of other people not listening to me about my health my roomate stealing tons of money from me and just life in general I lost everything and am now in a prison granted a cival prison but still a prison.
I am just at my lowest point now and need prayers for God to free me from this place
weell aside from my health I was literally starving to death unable to afford much food and on top of that my room mate was stealing money from me eating all kinds of junk food andd fast food while I was becoming skin and bones I had to call the er several times just so I could get fluids andd some food in me "I could barely move or walk from low energy and with my health and starving I almost died
A case manager from the er took action because she had met with me several times in the er and was furious at my family for letting me get to that point she sent me to a nursing home and I finally got to eat and get my medications and my health was getting better my body got some wight and my energy came back but while that is all well and gooddd this place is a prison you cannot even go outside or do anything outside the building the people in charge do not casre about the people here they just want the money they get from having people live here every day I struggle with my mental state being locked up in this building every day being like the day before dealing with constant depression sleeping a lot not eating andd wondering if God is punishing me
I have tried every which way to be able to get out andd live my life but every which way I try it doesn't work out. I was denied assistant living and most nursing homes here in oklahoma I don't qualify for and there is no one willing to take me in and help me get back on my feet so I am stuck here
I am trying to just accept the situation and trust God but my hope is dried out I am just sad and feeling trapped and I would do anything to just be able to have my apartment again but this time have the right support so my health doesn't get worse again but there seems to be no path in sight for me and I fear I will be stuck here for the rest of my life.
I am even starting to get suicidal thoughts I am a free spirit I can't be caged or in prisoned or else my mental state gets really bad. and honestly I tried to be strong I tried my best to follow the path God wanted but because of other people not listening to me about my health my roomate stealing tons of money from me and just life in general I lost everything and am now in a prison granted a cival prison but still a prison.
I am just at my lowest point now and need prayers for God to free me from this place
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