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I was saved into Christ back in 2010, but lately, I feel like I really didn't know what I was doing. Sure, I believed in Jesus and all, but I really wasn't ready to take Christ into full effect. Lately, probably the last 6 or 7 months, I've been having recurring thoughts that were a little too atheistic. I kept thinking, 'what if God wasn't real?' and that makes me really uncomfortable. I try going to my Youth Group as often as possible, but that doesn't do much. I'm too embarassed to say this to youth pastor, who, I'll probably go back to. I'm way too embarassed to tell my parents. They're very religious, and I'd like to think I am, too. It's strange; I'll defend Christ when brought up in a face to face argument, but when I challenge myself, I'm left feeling guilty, confused, and shameful. I figured I might try this anonymously first, before going on to discussing with my youth pastor. Is there anything I can start doing that will help me find Christ again? I feel lost and tempted by the devil, who is clearly winning the fight in my life. Help, please.