I REGRET WATCHING PORN I'M IN CRISIS HELP

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Nando

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Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.
 

PennEd

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Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.
You have said you are a Christian.
How would you define what a Christian is?
 

shittim

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images we allow in our brain are pretty much there forever from what I understand, the best we can do is put more good images in. 'Dr. Caroline Leaf and others do a lot of good work in teaching us to rewire our brains.
I know she has a mountain of good teaching in videos and books.
bless you, He cares for you, so do we here at CC
 
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Hi! I'm 18 years old as well. Pornography is definitely something lots of people around our age watch these days. Especially when its showed to be normal. And let me tell you, it's far from normal.

I dont want to waste too much time talking about it. But to your main point at the end... yes, God does forgive you... just confess and ask for His forgiveness and He will😊

If you feel like you need to tell your parents, go for it. But once you know you've dealt with it with God... then you'll know if you need to tell your parents and they can help you with whatever questions you have about sexuality or whatever.
 

shittim

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That you mourn the sin is repentance, I am proud of you, Jesus is too.
 
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Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.
Yes, God will forgive you. Go ahead and make it a habit to not look at it anymore. You peeked at it and realized it's bad. You know now. We can confess our sins directly to God. Praise and glorify God for the forgiveness He's given you through Jesus Christ's sacrifice.

When you're tempted by sin, no matter what it is, you can actually reach out to God and ask for help. I've been supernaturally relieved of any desire to pursue a temptation more times than I can remember now.

I think these are among the kind of prayers God wants to answer with a resounding yes.

Praying for you. Please let us know how you're doing.
 

Subhumanoidal

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Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.
It's a bit unusual that someone who is "disgusted" by the physical engagement of two same sex people will watch it for two months. Especially when that is also the sex of the viewer. I have to wonder about the motivation behind that.

Porn does not necessitate nudity. Foot fetishes and the like still fly under the flag of sexual fetishes as it is intended to invoke the same response as nude porn, just through a different avenue. In fact it could be seen as the sexualization of otherwise non-sexual parts of the body.

As a teen I dealt with my own struggles and the notion of how people viewed me and the fear of the repercussions by not living up to their standards. One thing I learned is no one suffered, but me. And not just short term. Being unwilling to speak up left me to deal with things alone that people often need others for. You move forward, not with facts but old wives tales and false information that only serve to further trap you in your silence.
Also you live in constant fear of being found out.
So you can either deal with it now, or live with it always.

Also try researching the porn industry to find out just what a dark nightmare the porn industry is, including the sites that host it. Racism, abuse, drug use, rape, incest, humiliation, blackmail, coercion, sex trafficking, revenge porn, sexism and sex with underage children are all common and frequent topics.
The largest porn site in the world recently took a major hit when they were exposed for knowingly hosting actual rape videos, as well as sex with minors. Even when made aware they were often slow to respond and to remove them, if they removed them at all.

Finding out the horrors that go on behind the camera (and sometimes on camera) is rather sickening. The site FightTheNewDrug.org showcases many articles by former porn performers, producers, victims and more. As well as statistics and articles on the addiction. All that information is a good deterrent.
 

Roughsoul1991

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Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.
God forgives a true repentance of the heart. Repentance after salvation doesn't obtain salvation as you have already been freely given that. You are simply defeating the tactics of Satan to sow shame in your mind. The type of shame or deception to make you hide from God or ask questions about forgiveness.

You have a testimony to the power that porn can have over the mind. Now you must submit it to Christ. In His power you can prevail. Keywords: His power. All you need to do is fully submit to His will.

Of course, tell your parents, who will hopefully give you loving advice. I recommend removing or blocking any triggers.

You now have gained like the tree of knowledge, the knowledge of sexual immorality, and now you can not unsee what you saw. But you can replace those memories with holy ones. It takes time and takes adding more positives than negatives.
 
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God forgives a true repentance of the heart. Repentance after salvation doesn't obtain salvation as you have already been freely given that. You are simply defeating the tactics of Satan to sow shame in your mind. The type of shame or deception to make you hide from God or ask questions about forgiveness.

You have a testimony to the power that porn can have over the mind. Now you must submit it to Christ. In His power you can prevail. Keywords: His power. All you need to do is fully submit to His will.

Of course, tell your parents, who will hopefully give you loving advice. I recommend removing or blocking any triggers.

You now have gained like the tree of knowledge, the knowledge of sexual immorality, and now you can not unsee what you saw. But you can replace those memories with holy ones. It takes time and takes adding more positives than negatives.
Yes indeed I can attest to this my first few months of a new home was a rough one being exposed to that very thing I was foolish to even consider looking at it but I've learned to move away from it I've moved forward with it my mind barely ever thinks of those days I've filled it with the love of my family and friends I've turned to god I have surrendered waving my White flag thank you for what you have done for me i will never forget that you are a memory never to be forgotten
 
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Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.
God forgives sin he is a loving father be honest to your parents it may be rough at first they may give you a hard time but its because they love you believe me I'm a 15 year old boy who far exceeded days of it but my loving uncle who has taken the place of my father who has cared for me he may have taken my phone for periods of time but it worked he was upset with me as to why I would watch such a thing why I would not only defile myself but the ones actually going through it but when I gave him my honest answers I was of course given punishment for it but it smoothed over I haven't watched it since again you are forgiven so just give it to god he'll make sure that you get through it
 

Mark47Oz

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Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.
First of all, breathe young man. Nothing you have done is unforgivable.

Secondly, don't stress about your sexuality. If you're attracted to girls, then great! You're like most other people.

Apologise to God and ask him for forgiveness and guidance. Your sins are judged by him alone.

You need to love and respect your parents too, as per the ten commandments. Do not lie to them about it if asked, but follow your conscience with regard to telling them.

You're a teen-ager. Teen-agers make mistakes and they experiment. You've done something you regret, but as long as you learn from it, you'll come out a better person.

And always remember, Jesus loves you very much. This won't be the last mistake you make in your life. But if you stay close to him he'll c be your best friend and he'll never let you down.
 

YankeeGalDownUnder1964

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Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.
hi mate i came out of the adult industry ! try this site xxx church it can help wih porn addiction , ill be praying for you
 
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Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.
As a Christian, you have been given the Spitit, and with it comes a sound mind. Your sanctification is a blessing, it is God's will for you to refrain sexual immorality; that includes all sexual behavior outside of marriage. We are all sexual beings, some are more active than others, and restraint is sometimes difficult. Trust in the Lord. If you stumble, go to the Lord in prayer, ask for strengthened faith and strengthened resistance to temptation. He will provide. But if you stumble, He is there to hear your confession and cleanse you of all unrighteousness. Blessings.
 
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Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.
Truth is it is going to be a on going battle till you die. To make things better get rid of the things you have or involved that leads you to sin. Worship in the house get married try your best and repent every time.
 

CS1

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Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.
I recommend to you a very good Christ center program called Pure Life Ministries https://www.purelifeministries.org/ I personally know the Pastor of this and he is a great man of God.
 

Trogicj

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Hi, I'm 18 years old. I will begin by saying that throughout my teenage and puberty, sexuality was a subject that interested me very little. While guys and girls in my class talked about masturbation and watching pornography, I was never interested and never did until this year. During this second year of quarantine I didn't have much to do until I was curious about masturbation, I tried to do very little (less than 10 times in my entire life) without disgusting thoughts or porn, I was just trying to test the feeling. After that time I was interested in the matter of porn, I was watching gay porn for two months (I am heterosexual, and I respect the female body, I was disgusted to see intimate affairs of couples of the same orientation; while naked men I've always seen, for example in the gym, for that reason it never caused me sexual abhorrence), I saw little but I saw it, now I am very overwhelmed and sorry, even though it was not porn as it is, I explored fetishes where there wasn't always intimate nudity (like feet fetish), but they were still on porn pages. I didn't jerk off looking at it either (I have my values). But I saw it. A couple of days ago I had a crisis thinking about what my parents would think about their son? The one who seemed and was the most "holy" in school without alcohol or drugs, or anything sexual. I repeat, despite the fact that I got a bit hard during gay porn (and didn't feel comfortable), I have never wanted to have sex with a man, I want to get married and start a family later. What I need is help, I need to know if God will forgive me for this stupid thing I did, should I teel my parents (I love and trust them too much). I answer any questions. Thank you for reading! Blessings.
Jesus Christ died for all your sins. It is finished. Everything needed for your forgiveness and salvation has already been accomplished. There is nothing you can do except believe it.