Kayem honestly there is no point in talking to you lol dont take offense but you wont help me lol thank you tho for your concern and for the encouragement, I I thank you but you cant help, oh and honestly I see to much pride lol in you, I dont like to talk to people who have pride, thats why honestly. If I feel any pride coming from a person its like no help at all
I guess in simple words, I dont like to pretend Im fine until I am really fine. I dont like to lie to myself and just live by saying to myself God is there when I dont have any evidence in my person that He is. Maybe you guys were willing to let go as easily because you didnt hold them dearly, but I do the things I dont have yet I want to have, the things I do have and I dont want to let go are dear to me. Ive seen many people lose things because they turn to God and even if they tell me oh God is enough I still see that inside they are hurt by the fact that it was taken away.. Ive seen many people live in God but they lived such pour and empty lifes.. always suffering, with nothing and alone, and I would try to be there but how can you say your happy when I see you cry and suffer so much pain? See to me that is scary living for God and have nothing? With the promise of paradise? Then why live this life? Then why go thru this? Maybe to you Gods sacrifice in Jesus is enough for any suffering but to me its not. I do accept yes it is awesome He died for our sins. Yet it is not enough for the suffering everyone suffers.. blah now im going on a jargon.. simple again.. His death and resurrection is awesome, yet it is not enough for the suffering of millions.. In my person it still falls short.. I just dont like people suffering.. suffering makes people turn to evil.. I know because I have gone to do bad stuff because of pain.. anyways I end this shortly.. by saying thank you.
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Uriel, do not read so much into the actual words of what kayM is saying as to her message, she is, like julianna, like snackersmom, like everyone else, Loving you, with Christ's Love, a Love that is beyond understanding. They are on here trying to help you, show you what they have already seen in their life at work. Does that make sense, they all want you to experience God like they have, and, kayM tried to use imperative (commanding) wording to help you. Julianna was telling things in her own way, not 'sugarcoating' things as she said. Snackersmom was with great message, telling you she wasn't Loving God enough when she realized she wasn't showing others enough Love. I think that is what she said.And, Drstephgren too, Honest1 too, Lucy, too, all words, to help you understand our great God better . All of these people want to help you see. Their words to you are meant for you to see Him, Uriel, to see how they see Him and want you to try and see IF their way of finding God and His Love works for you
Your words, Uriel:
I am sorry if I took your time but I just needed to say this again. Proof of my heart open up to you fellow brothers and to the Lord, not for the attention but for the hope that maybe the Lord will hear me.
Im really hard headed and so its hard to just believe, I know I hate that about myself but I cant change that. I need proof, I need it, and Im ashamed of it.
Sincerely Uriel.
We are all hard-headed, just because you become a christian does not mean we lose our stubbornness, our worldliness, we must FIGHT that fight daily still, because Satan is in the world, roaming, destroying lives all the time, telling people, 'Nothing matters. Sin all you want. Your life ends when you die.'
Don't believe his lies. Remember what scripture says, 'Satan is the father of lies.'
Look no further than the beginning of man's time, when Satan deceived, telling Eve and Adam 'You won't die,' Satan said. 'Once you eat the fruit( of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil), your eyes will be opened and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.'
Who was right? Satan or God?
God is in your life now, Uriel, from what you said in the above quote proves it, not just there, in your opening post earlier you said you have gone to 'many churches' I think it was and you have acccepted God into your life, didn't you say. Well, just BELIEVE in His process for you. He knows. I know that you are wanting Him to show you great things now, but you have been trying to be living for Him for awhile now, despite persecution from family and friends, it sounds like.
What is that?
That is The Enemy ATTACKING you from one side, and, as Julianna said to you, Uriel, that is the Holy Spirit, too, and, they are warring for your soul. God is a gentleman though, and, just. He will allow you to choose this day whom you will serve . God or Satan. And, you can't serve both God and Satan. God will not be in you if you are choosing Satan. He will not. YOU must choose !
Have you gone to the altar and cried your heart out to Jesus. I have done this before, many times, actually. God hears our prayers, wipes away our tears, too. He will comfort you in those times of great need, like now. But, we must submit and surrender ALL to Him. What is left in your life to surrender ?
For when you surrender 'it,' too, you will see , OH, Uriel, you will see.