I am praying for you. Do you know that if you rebuke those thoughts in the name of Jesus each time they pop up they will stop tormenting you? You have to remember how Jesus tells us in the bible that when you are His child you can have perfect peace through Him. Let Him fight this battle for you by laying it at His feet (verbally say that to Him) I myself have a lot of mental crap I deal with from the devil. I have prayed and asked God to revel the truth over the devils lies and He does. I have prayed whining to God telling Him how much I hate the evil, gross, dark thoughts and could he please hide me under his wing and not let them get through. He does every time ya know. Hide me that is from them. I think we just have to remember to call out to Him for His help and train our minds to do this always.
I think that the closer you get to God and the more you reach for Him the more you can expect mental attacks from the devil. Don't be disenheartened by it but let it fill your heart up with gladness that each time the devil tries his crap on us that our Lord Jesus is ready and willing to battle him for us. The devil has tried soooo many times to pull me away from God and honestly I am glad my God is jealous for me and just doesn't allow it to happen. I wake up every morning reaching for my Jesus with my mind. Think about it like this....if the devil is trying that hard to keep us away from getting closer to God....just imagine the good beautiful amazing things that he is trying to keep us from and then your like nope no way.
Psalms Chapter 91
Couple of Bible verses that might help you okay.
2 Corinthians 12: 10
Therefore take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ sake. For when I am weak then I am strong.
(scary dreams but I honestly think the devil has found your greatest fear and that you are giving him the power to use it against you. Its simple: Stop. This verse states clearly that you have NOTHING to fear from anything the devil does to you. Believe in our Lords love and protection for you honey.)
2 I will say of the Lord, HE is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in Him will I trust.
3 Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.
4 He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.
5 Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day;
6 Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday.
7 A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
8 Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.
9 Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;
10 There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
11 For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.
12 They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone.
13 Thou shalt tread upon the lion and adder: the young lion and the dragon shalt thou trample under feet.
14 Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high, because he hath known my name.
15 He shall call upon me, and I will answer him: I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him, and honour him.
16 With long life will I satisfy him, and shew him my salvation.
James 4:7
7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.
2 Timothy 1:7
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. (once you really start to believe this verse....any power the devil has over you with the fear of not having a sound mind just goes pop and floats away and you see oh so clearly how the devil lies lies lies)